400+

Hi

Tomorrow I will reach 400days of no PMO cycle. I received a lot of improvement in my life. Body, thinking, attraction and whatever else... maybe I will wrote everything when I'm gonna reach 500+. But for now my biggest problem it's not obstaining from PMO, it's dealing with loneliness. When I stripped off from all that cultural sexualization, compulsive reactions, objectification women or body, learn more about not hurting myself and others, changing my thinking routines, I realized that all my previous acts were to get attention of someone. I was escaping from that feeling into PMO, Games, Drinking, Drugs, Meaningless Sex, super fast motorcycle driving and other super stupid things to impress to others or myself because I thought it's cool that I can cross line, be on edge. I realized that, I did all that things because I thought that someone can't just simply like me. Still don't. Mostly my friends were people who want to be admired and liked. I give them that without any back reaction for my actions of feelings. Mostly it was criticized or just ignored. I'm from Art-Design World mostly people are like that in this community. I accepted that. But it's shitty. Trying to find new friends.

I'm dreaming just about simple joy or smile from fact that someone seeing me or want to see mee or talk to me. But I think I have to deal with it for little bit more time.

 

Hi, I'm new on this website, I just came looking for some help, about this problem.

I have a beautiful family, friends, mainly I have God in my life, but like any person sometimes I just feel alone.

The best I can tell you, open sincerely your heart to God, and your life will be unexpectable better. This world it's sad, full of violence, hate, materialism, and many different kind of aberrant, diseased and destructing sex.
But God really change and heal everything.

My English is not to good, some times I have just few time for talk, but If you want we can be friends.

I send you a biggest hug, from the deepest love of Lord Jesus.

Sincerely
Jhoshua

 

The one thing I will say to this results differ from person to person so do expectations and reasons for doing this .

 

totally agree with this, it's worth because it's changing your patterns helps you to move your ass, be more active, friendly, curious about people. Loneliness is something what's coming when you leave all bad habits. This is why I think in relationship it's kind of easier. In my case I think when I'm gonna achieve 500+ I will change my goal only to not watch porn. Because in long term it's not healthy (from what I read), and I'm not looking for ONS or meaningless sex, it's fun but when you gonna think about it it's kind of also dangerous from many aspects.

 

I'm 400+ free from not doing exactly this cycle P>M>O. Real sex with woman it's something completely different. When you doing rewire your point of view of woman is completely different. You stop objectifying, sexualizing, dreaming about fuck every walking woman. When your brain is more clear you looking in sex, companion, partner, lover, someone you trust, you can feel intimacy. Not just simple act of doping your brain with dopamine and endorfine. Your brain doesn't know different between masturbation>orgasm and sex>orgasm. Same proces in hormones. But problem is porn which is like drug you take to feel always high and self pleased.

 

You completely sure that nothing changed in your live? Your feelings now can bu totally subjective because you are in struggle and this struggle is hell. Check my earlier posts. It wasn't always super for me. BUT. When I wrote on paper what changed in my live, I realized that i did so fucking a lot things. Still have day's that I think I did nothing or fell super bad.This is why I Wrote this tread. But sometimes you have to confront your actual situation with period of time or experiences that you had.

 

Always can be worse. But don't give up Mattew. I know how you fill bro. Just go out. Walk somewhere without purpose. Call to your parents, siblings. Just talk to them and think about if you feel no purpose, be purpose for them. 2 years ago I stood on 5th floor in window, but watching pavement from 5th flor for like 2hours, made me to make a conclusion "I want to try be happy". Try also. Be strong. Find simply elements of joy or to be grateful for. Like you you are not hungry, you are helthy or have parents. Simply little things I'm with you.