[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 4- A ray of hope beginning to show up in my thinking. Yesterday, I went into the small forest that is not so far from home and let me just say it calmed me down more than anything. There is something about being at one with nature. I will do the same today for the better part of the day. Inner peace is more important than making money for me now. I cannot continue a life of self torture, being half alive.

It dawned on me yesterday that there is no more time to play around with porn anymore. I am soon turning 33 years of age and before I know it I will be 50 years of age if I will still be alive. Time is flying at a terrific pace. I don't want to get old and still be addicted to this shit. Also, there is the case that tomorrow may never come and I could die at any time. I need to be fully aware of my mortality. I act as if I am going to live forever, like there is so much time to get over this addiction. Well, there is no time. I usually wonder to myself what my epitaph on my tomb will say "Here lies the guy who watched porn and masturbated his life away. He had so much potential but it remained untapped". I don't want to be this guy anymore.

So I am tired of half assing NoFap, giving just 70 % commitment. I must commit 100 percent. No cheat days. No excuses. NoFap for me now means a radical change in my mindset and actions. NoFap for me now means making a holistic lifestyle change spiritually, physically, morally and psychologically. NoFap for me now means recovery not just simply abstinence, counting the days and constantly being in fear of triggers. NoFap for me means mindfulness and forward thinking not living in the past.

 

70 / 365

 

Back to zero again, still here, still struggling.

 

Day 10

 

Awesome this is just what I needed, what's up!

 

Day 191.

 

Day 110/365

 

Day 9/365

 

great quote.

 

great to see you have a vision.
It will help you a lot.
Now you've stepped up your vision of your future and your body have advanced to this level.
Keep feeding and elevating your vision about your future . And act accordingly , based on your new one, try new outfits, diet , use vegetarian diet .
You have the ability and you are capable bro.

 

had a horrible relapse ... let''s try this again.

 

Give up the time , days, counter.
It will come whether you want or not.
Just work on and improve the quality of the presence,the time you are living,the present time, relax, free your mind from extra thoughts,think about the nature, you yourself in abundance, in your own private airplane and ..
it needs some effort at first ,but it becomes a part of you after a while, your body will be in mindfulness state automatically ,and it is great.
keep every day learning about it,
I say it out of my experience.
It is worth .
And share your success experience here with us, I will be thankful bro.

 

27 days

we’re addicted to our beliefs; we’re addicted to the emotions of our past. We see our beliefs as truths, not ideas that we can change. If we have very strong beliefs about something, evidence to the contrary could be sitting right in front of us, but we may not see it because what we perceive is entirely different. We’ve in fact conditioned ourselves to believe all sorts of things that aren’t necessarily true—and many of these things are having a negative impact on our health and happiness. Certain cultural beliefs
Joe Dispenza, You Are the Placebo: Making Your Mind Matter

 

6/365

 

Day 40 check in

 

Well done mate! How do you feel?

 

Day 4/365

 

Feel great.
Working other things for recovery so this is my only number checking thing.
Everything else is things I do rather than things I avoid

 

100/365

 

Relapsed again and I'm back to day 0. I'm having a very difficult time with resisting urges and making new habits. It seems like when I get an urge I'm getting too caught up in the stories that I tell myself (e.g. Just this once, Only one more time, Just search a little bit, etc.) and I give in because the feeling is so strong. Any advice greatly appreciated!

Day 0/154 (Days Clean Before Return Home)