Any of you guys have identity crisis?

I can really relate to this. I wonder what happened to the old me too. It feels like he died a long time ago, and I really want him back. Porn is a life destroyer. Hang in there man.

 

chinaman is not the preferred nomenclature, its asian american..please...

 

Ive noticed over the past month that in an effort to understand and tamp down my urges I have tapped into a sort of thought rhythm. I finally feel like the amount of time i spend fantasizing about this woman or that woman is something I can better manage. My memory and my attention is improving because I have engaged in a diet of the mind so to speak. I dont think its a "super power" as I have seen it written here. Its just standard operating procedure but Ive been mentally fractured and distracted for such a long time that it feels like it.
My outward identity hasnt really been an issue, I have always engaged in the things I was interested in, and there are quite a few. My issue has been shame and feeling like a p.o.s. because of my "closed door" activities and I think its true that there is a conflict between the two personas as Super Furry Thing said.
I have had every opportunity to fall back into old habits over the last two weeks, and I stayed strong. Even if I fail today Im pleased with myself and now have something to build on. I think that thats the key. Keep trying to figure it out no matter what, just keep trying.

 

This is a positive thing though, right? Having the chance to re-find and re-define what makes us tick, what makes us happy, and what brings us fulfilment sounds like an exciting period in our life. No?