My first 30 days ever

i want to start this thread giving my thanks to the people who shared their success histories, that motivated me to accomplish my own success...

I’m 33 years old, been a PmO addict since I was 13, but in the last year got really worse, started watching hardcore sh**t, got hooked to it that even regular porn was boring, I got so addicted to it that I couldn’t control myself anymore, if was like my body was in control of my mind, I was tired, depressed, emotional, sad and to get things worse the girl I was dating dumped me cuz my ED problem,making me even more depressed and lonely, I started consuming more P, it was like a drug everytime I wanted more and more, I couldn’t stop it I was feeling helpless hopeless, a nightmare.

In the past I tried many times NoFap but failed, my longest streak was 16 days, and when I relapsed was even worse than before, I had no will power, no motivation, no strength to do it.

Until October 1 that day I decided that I will change my situation Forever.

What I did was simple and scary to me but it works.
Sold my computer and gave away my smartphone, No access to internet at all.
Got a dumb phone just for my job.
I made a to do list of what I must have to do everyday...
* going to the gym
*read books
*meditate
*journal

First 2 weeks was like hell on earth,
Insomnia , depression, low apetite low energy urges everytime, was super dificult.
But I didn’t skip any single day my to do list even Saturday and Sunday.

3 week, started feeling calm and relax, getting a little stronger thanks to the gym
Brain fog little better, but my depression was still present and that was making me sad cuz I was still thinking in that girl, starting to missed her and feeling guilty for my fucking ED problem, to get things worse I experimented my first flatline during this week that’s last 5 days, if I’d have my phone or computer probably I wouldn’t be typing this now, flatlines sucks but I knew that something like that will happen if my brain was getting heal.

4 week. By the end of the 4 week I got a morning erection, I got so exited my energy levels was increasing too, my confidence was high, I was walking straight, smiling more, making eye contact,
Been more present, no need of pills to sleep anymore, my apetite was huge, no urges, talk more to people.

5 week. I feel like I woke up from a nightmare, I can say honestly that I feel happy, depression is gone, after a month in the gym I’m stronger now, no just physically but emotional and mentally too.
I’m not making this up guys, it’s true.
( I texted the girl couple days ago, she texted me back but very nasty, insulting me I laughed about it and delete her from my life, that was an amazing feeling)

It’s amazing how much I changed just in 30 days, and now on my way to 100 days .

English is my second language guys, apologies if something is not clear.

If you have any question I’ll happy to answer.

 

Thank you for your comment!
Getting disconnected from my phone and internet for a month was a great decision, not easy tho, instead of checking my phone in my way to work I was reading books, when I got home after work my attention was in my to do list, like going to the Gym, learning to play guitar(I didn’t mention This above because Im super beginner, but improving daily) meditate was super important to me, Saturday and Sunday usually had more time to go to walk to the park or maybe a short run, visiting friends, just tried to be busy, staying at home alone was not an option for me...
The books I read and highly Recomend

* Breaking the habit of being yourself
(Amazing book guys please take a look at it)
* the heartmath solution
(This is a one good too)
* the power of now
Thank you again hope this helps !