Declaring War

I first saw porn when I was about 12 years old. I had my first access to the internet at that time and was beginning to get curious about what sex was and the why, and how of the whole idea. Looking back it was total ignorance and innocence that lead to the evil of porn.

I started to spend all my time on photos of nude women when I had privacy and this elevated to discovering videos and learning about masturbation. I became a master of deception to my parents (who still do not know) and in deleting history. Over the years porn has indeed destroyed my life and my relationship with God, but there have been many times of strength in the Lord. All of the many times I have tried to stop I have come closer to God with each time and then fallen harder than the last and grown farther from God and all that is good.

I want to make this time the last time. But I need Allies in this fight to keep me accountable and further my relationship with the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. I need to know how to use this site to succeed in this fight. Please make comments on how to find a good accountability partner and different resources and strategies of how to win this battle.

I have fought this battle for a long time and am not blind that it will be one of ease. No, this battle will be one of much blood and many defeats, but with God and my fellow brothers in Christ, it is battle that can indefinitely be won!

Please, I ask for your prayers and assistance in this time of darkness.

 

Day 1:
A good day in the battle, so far. I have been able to get an accountability partner and have started on the journey to freedom. The first step is to pray more and read the bible more. I want to come closer to the Lord. The second step for me is making a list of my triggers and getting answers to those triggers.
The list now stands at boredom and lack of motivation. This all stems from lazyness. I need to find an answer to keep me accountable to do the things I should do and need to do. Porn and Masturbation is the escape, but it is an escape that leads only to further destruction. It will be something I will be praying about and by tomorrow will have an answer.

 

I am back in the battle again and am here to finish the battle. While I may have to go on business trips, family vacations, and get to busy at work I will try and keep this journal going. I am also interested in finding or making a accountability group.

I just finished a 10 day steak and am ready to start my never again streak. It felt great to be away from porn and masturbation for such a long time (it was a long time for me). I felt happier and altogether more the person I want to be and more the person God is calling me to be. The counter was great incentive for me not to fall, even though eventually I did this morning. The biggest reason why was a lack of self-discipline. I was laying in bed and was so comfortable where I was that I did not want to get up and face a day of hard work. Well, I am not comfortable where I am at now. I want to be the best I can be in the eyes of God and to do that I must overcome this evil.

Now I am going to start one of the longest hardest fights I have ever chosen to fight: Quitting porn and masturbation forever! I know this will be a hard fight because I have been losing this fight for over 7 years. There might be looses, but in the end, I will win with Gods help.

Please pray for me. I will check in daily and when will not be able to I will give this page a heads up of my time away and when I will be back. I will fight. My next post must be on how I will fight. Declare War on Porn and Masturbation Every Day!

 

Going on a business trip to some meetings in a remote area, not sure if there will be internet or not there. Will be gone till Saturday.
The fight is going strong. Yesterday, I fasted all day and spent as much time as I could in prayer. The fasting was so good for my self-discipline!
I have had some times of temptation, but have been able to ignore them.
This morning I did wake up and sit in bed for 2hrs instead of getting up like I was supposed to do. That has to change.
I am so glad I am in this fight! While deep down I still desire porn and masturbation, I know what my soul desires a better relationship with God and now my mind does too. Porn and Masturbation were cutting away at that relationship.
Please pray for me as I am trying to find my vocation in life and to stay strong in this battle while on my trip.
Declare War on Porn and Masturbation Every Day!

 

Thanks for your prayers, could really use some today too! Yes, porn truly is a demon that is killing are souls and we must fight this demon if we are to be with God. How is your battles going when it comes to porn? Declare War on Porn Every Day my Friend!

 

Environments are really toxic. I was working in a federal entity the other year and the references to sex and the plane talking about porn among coworkers was terrible. You are right that sometimes it can be humorous, but when you actually think about what they are saying it is downright disgraceful. Had to make a decision not to work there due to this atmosphere. Birds of a feather flock together. That saying is really pertinent to our situation.

 

Again, today I am living for Christ and saying no to the things that separate me from the Lord. No porn or impurity today! I need to stay busy.