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Day 44, major 'Flatlining' and crippling anxiety

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by PeetaMellark, Jan 22, 2015.

  1. PeetaMellark

    PeetaMellark Fapstronaut

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    Hey,

    I have never really been a person who understood anxiety until now...
    What I've been going through for the last two to three weeks is almost painful in it's physical attack on my body...
    I've actively not fapped or looked at porn for the last 44 days, and thought I was stressed about work, but now I realise it's about my dopamine levels returning to normal...
    I've done some reading, and that's what it must be...

    One of the other big tricks that you're unprepared for is when you flatline... When your penis doesn't react to anything at all, and you can't even get excited by your wife, it's terrifying... Then the trap is to want to watch porn and fantasise so that you get a reaction 'down below' and see that your 'manhood' still works, which then sets you up for a relapse...
    I've been embracing the withdrawals which is something I've read, but boy i can't wait until this is over and I feel normal again...

    THere's no way I want to relapse on this now and have to go through all this again...

    I just want the anxiety to go away...

    Stay strong fellow fapstronauts...

    PeetaMellark


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  2. Eric Forman

    Eric Forman Fapstronaut

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    That is definitely a good sign that you're rebooting the right way! See it as a positive! Keep it going!
     
  3. crushurcravings

    crushurcravings Fapstronaut

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    I'm in exactly the same situation as you my man. Keep trucking!
     
  4. NoBrainer

    NoBrainer Distinguished Fapstronaut

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    I'm glad to hear you are progressing well with your reboot. Flat line can be annoying for some guys on here. It may feel scary not to have 'normal' sexual functionality down there for a while, but don't worry- it's a phase that will pass. If you were exposed to porn after your adolescence, chances are you stand in good stead for rebooting at 90 days or before. Most older guys report that they feel completely rebooted after the flat line passes. It may take up to 90 days since your last PMO for the flat line to go away though.

    In the mean time, this is a good opportunity for you to embrace other healthy aspects of your life, such as focusing solely on intimacy with your wife (without sex). If you were to tell her (if you haven't already), I'm sure she would be understanding of your decreased libido, and may make the whole situation less tense.

    Good luck, stay strong, don't relapse and the flat line will pass with time.

    Regards
    NoBrainer
     
  5. PeetaMellark

    PeetaMellark Fapstronaut

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    Thanks guys.
    Yes NoBrainer my wife is aware and I'll concentrate on those things. I'm 43 so hopefully it'll all pass soon.
    I wouldn't say I was addicted per se but I was well on the way.
    Looking forward to a life without porn that's for sure.

    Stay strong.

    Peetamellark
     
  6. ght5

    ght5 Fapstronaut

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    I'm kind of in the same situation. I'm recovering from binge masturbation. My problem is masturbation, I've only used porn lightly. I actually gave myself prostatis, which I am trying to cure with home remedies. After 9 days I am starting to feel SOME life downstairs, like waking up today with partial morning wood.

    There is that temptation to check if the equipment works. It's amazing what your manhood not working properly does to your psychology. Going through flatline should in itself be a motivation to not relapse again when I'm over with it.

    It's like when I was in high school I smoked weed and had a SUPER BAD reaction to it, so bad that it caused chronic panic attacks for some years. After that experience I was turned off from drugs and swore I'd never try again. In the end, it was the best thing that ever happened to me.

    In my religion, looking for arousal outside of marriage is a sin, so it's kind of a strange situation. Main thing is I just want everything to work properly when I get married and to be free of any addictions long before the marriage.
     
  7. ritani

    ritani Fapstronaut

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    Where can I read more about this "dopamine returning to normal levels" thing (why would that cause pain), and flatlining in general. I don't quite understand all of this and have yet to experience it. Not looking forward to it...
     

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