A 26 year old man with 13 years of masturbation wanting to quit

The habit has almost destroyed my self-esteem. Even though I rarely watch porn, once in a quarter for the last 3 years, I surf YouTube for hot heroine videos and without any shame, watch the photos of random women on facebook (many of them are my friends). I keep on watching the attractive ladies in my workplace (the count should have crossed 50) but never had the courage to even propose one among them. I don't remember a week wherein I didn't do masturbation.
All my reboot tries so far followed the same pattern. Hard mode for first 2-3 days, then I will start to orgasm in the next 2-4 days and finally I quit somewhere in the days between 7-9. What's worst is that the count would peak to 3-5 times during the reboot day and sometimes extend to the next 1 or 2 days as well. Those days, I will feel extremely bad about myself and cry out loud inside my heart that I can never break it.
Whenever I tried sharing my problems with non fap friends, it only got worse since they teased and humiliated me instead of supporting.
I joined nofap community to get help/support. I believe that if I get the much needed support, I can be better positioned to overcome the habit. Thank you friends.

 

Septimus/Wiwilliam

Could you please like my post ? (Even if you don't literally). I want to change my signature. Thanks