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Watching P just to see if it has the same old impact?

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Weidro, Nov 30, 2018.

  1. Weidro

    Weidro Fapstronaut

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    So currently im 76 days porn free and 26 days MO- free, a few moments ago, i clicked on a porn Video for the first time since 76 days. I have a really boring evening right now and have nothing to do. So like you might think, i have to fight a huge urge since hours. But this isnt the topic of this thread. I mean maybe my porn influenced brain just thought this, but i clicked on a femdom video (i was jerking to this nearly every day back then) cause i wanted to see if it gives me a boner. So you need to know, im really 10000000% sure that i never ever will jerk to porn again, that's why i clicked on a Video and just watched my dick, cause im sure i wont fap to this! Anyway my dick was getting hard, so i clicked it away, after a Minute. I dont consider this as a relapse btw. So does anyone done the same think, just to see if he's cured or not? I read many threads here, where people saying that the shit they used to fap to, now makes them laugh and not horny, i guess 76 days arent enough time. Does anyone here hast gained so much selfcontrol, that he can do this? And I mean whats your opinion about this anyway? I wish i could give you a tip or anything here, but i guess im just very serious about my Nofap Journey, that's might be the reason i watched it and didnt touched me at all. But im a little bit sad that femdom still makes me horny, cause i want to quit it.
     
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  2. DMBobcat

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    I have tried this once on a longer streak and it I was actually disgusted by the porn I saw. Mind you it wasn't even a fetish type of porn either just something you would see on the first page of any porn site. I think that sometimes the flatline phase has something to do with this, and no amount of visual or physical stimulation may make us horny.

    OTOH, I personally would stay away from doing this even on a streak as long as your because of your increase the dopamine activity in your brain that is most likely still hardwired to porn. Even though this seems harmless since you did not M, I find that it's like placing a small seed in your mind that will grow and consume you with the urge to see porn again. Best of luck though
     
  3. Mattew

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    I wouldn't do that, at least not now.

    Maybe do it after 6 months, there's no point anyway in doing it.
     
  4. Weidro

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    i guess you are right there, with the seemen and yeah often i just wish i could watch porn without any consequences, but my will is stronger.
     
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  5. 4DCreator

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    Every porn you watch is damaging your brain which is trying to recover somehow. I wouldn't watch anything, even as a try. It is quite contra productive. I count watching porn as a relapse if I set my counter as staying away from porn.

    Things they will make me horny now in porn will always make me horny, I don't need to try. I don't really have any super weird fetishes except women feet and anal which will always stay with me. I want to achieve that I won't have a need to watch porn and won't have need of fapping to get a good dopamine kick.
     
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  6. IGY

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    What you did was downright dangerous weirdo! How many times do you have to read "don't test yourself" for the message to get through! 76 days with no relapses whatsoever is commendable. But it is quite a short time in the grand scheme of things. You may not have relapsed tonight (according to your opinion), but that doesn't mean the seed planted will not produce consequences in the next few days. Some dopamine will have been released and your brain will crave for more. You have put yourself in harm's way. I hope you get away with it but, for fuck's sake, please do not do this again weirdo!
     
  7. 4DCreator

    4DCreator Fapstronaut

    Yes, "the seed was planted" is the right word. That seed can come any other day and cause huge damage which will be difficult to stop.
     
  8. Weidro

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    But im sure i never ever masturbate to porn again, no matter how hard it gets....
    Anyway i see you guys are against this, make sense of course. But what im hoping to get from NoFap is the cure of this fetish, and i believe i can overcome this.
    And i noticed one thing: quitting Porn forever is way more easier for me, then quitting Masturbation.
    And one thing you should know as well is: that this 76 streak right now is my very first try, i can control myself really good about this, maybe it was a mistake, but many other men would fapped on a boring evening like this. Maybe its getting a little bit harder now, for the next couple of days, but its also some expierience that i have now. And in my opinion its only a relapse when i fapped to this, like i used to. surely i wont do this again in the near future. Today was a `special` day, cause i learned something so i dont fully regret it. ;)
     
    Last edited: Nov 30, 2018
  9. de severn

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    It’s dangerous to do that. I would consider that edging and your brain definitely surged with a small cocktail of familiar chemicals. There’s no such thing as a recovered heroin addict who bangs with a syringe again just to convince themselves that they won’t get the same high like they always have.

    If you want to be healed, you need to stop peeking and edging unless you’re okay going back to all that stuff. Basically the Dr. Jekyll / Mr. Hyde will always battle each other. You just have to learn how to keep yourself away from impulses.

    I know it sounds like a rigid monk standard to be so disciplined but if the reward is important, you have to dedicate conscious efforts.
     
  10. Weidro

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    serious dude, i more often read, like i said, that people are overcoming their old porn videos they used to fap to and now they laughing about it, theyre overcome there old fetishes and fantasies. I want to achieve this too, and i will. So it was just a test, maybe a little bit to early.
     
  11. Weidro

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    A little throwback it was, but also a lesson
     
  12. de severn

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    For sure. No one is perfectly cured but watching porn or porn-subs even if you don’t jerk off is still a tease. It’s like displaying a bloody antelope to a lion’s nose but telling him to sit and stay behind the cage.
     
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  13. Self control is something I believe is We think and 2nd guess what we do in the moment and having the strength to stop it and sometimes it can be very hard to stop in what we crave for such as porn but after a while yes u can have a strong self disciplined mindset but it takes time to build it up. Peaking and searching up porn time to time on your recovery is something that’s gonna stop u from reaching that mindset of having strong self control.
     
  14. Sardonic

    Sardonic Fapstronaut

    After my 2nd relapse I went back and started watching all my "favorite" videos again. After a while the novelty wore off. I remember planning to PMO to a video that was over 2 hours long, but after 10 minutes I was just... disgusted with myself. I reset my counter the next day.
     
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  15. Hank Pym

    Hank Pym Fapstronaut

    I did the same thing on day 95... Started edging few days later and relapsed within a week.
    Remember P is the real enemy. Very hypnotizing. Your P-brain will find another excuse to watch p again.
    You did good thing by posting this. Take care for next days.
     
  16. Asgardian36

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    This thread is in Success stories (I have no f'ing idea why).....if you keep doing this, I'll have to visit your post in the relapse section!!!
    That might sound harsh, but thats reality. Don't be a f'ing hero!!!
     
  17. Weidro

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    I will and I will stay strong
     
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  18. Weidro

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    pls calm down, it wont happen again, its successfully enough for me that i didnt jerk to this and like i said, in my own definition it isnt a relapse, its an success, to have this selfcontrol. i dont want to trigger anything there
     
  19. What's the best way to know you have overcome a fetish?

    By the desire to not watch it at all. The moment you watch your "Fetish", you haven't overcome it. Because normal peiple don't expose themselves to test whether they Have overcome it or not.

    What you did was something like this.
    A drug addict, just taking a little bit of drug to test whether he is still addicted or not.

    You know it's funny, the kind of excuses one's brain generates to get what it wants.

    Get well soon, bro!
     
    Last edited: Dec 1, 2018
  20. Porn is not a toy and not something to be experimented upon


    Now a question arises,
    Does my dick words?
    Yes it does.
     
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