disordered psychology and physically failing again and again

hi this is my story i stuck in pmo from last 8 years i am (17) now from last 3_4 months i try yo reboot but fail . i long last for 4_5 days and failing again.
i got addicted masturbation first then porn Because one of my friend suggested that masturbation grew ur penis and give feelings of sex . for making masturbation i watch hot programs on tv and thrn yo internet porn and today i relapse again anyone help and i am looking for a partner who is going yo hrlp me in my rebooting . now what to do Fapstrautns my fault is i am not able keep myself consistent in rebooting not even for 2 weeks . i hsve read guys story who are conqour themselves for years after knowing all the damage but i got fail
good luck

 

what are the best way to feel the void ??
and how can i connect with more people and most importantly a girl

 

the major cause i am relapsing from last two months i have observed in my diary that i live alone and must of tome i turn to porn so how can i stop myself betraying give some examples i learn about not that i myself able to conqour me becausa my brain is in that condition when i alone i relapse
for example when my mom go outside earlier in morning for work i switch to porn for 30 minutes and then starting of fay goes on every morning or evening when i alone since my school are off because final exam are nearer . so i go outside in evening. but i fail in morning . since i am highly addicted . good luck to others
my problem when my parents are not at home i switch to porn directly even when i know i am in rebooting

 

you know relapsed again when i alone i am not able to collect that much guts that a rebooter should have
again i am directly ask for help how to control my beast when i alone because till 12 i was outside my hojse but today at 3 pm i relapsed watch porn and ejaculated without masturbation because of pipe life is fucking me again and again

 

so after making relapsed over the time i finally understood that why i am going relapse one part of my life i am going to share here
when i was in 2nd class i get detached ftom my parents and started to live with my uncle?? who is addicted to alcohol and over the period i saw both of them (uncle and aunt ) are fights with them and they people of neighbour's gathered around us. this process is continuing to next 5. years of my life , between this period i got to addicted to masturbation.

then i shifted to my parents again but instead of leaving masturbation, congrats i got addicted to porn.
after knowing all the forms and website finally i have realize how this thing have effect me. the reason of relapse i know ?? it is just because of my exhausting lifestyle
1. i am preparing for exam and attending regular classes of physics,chemistry,maths and we must have to complete daily homework which i not able maintain.
2. many guys committing suicide because of exam toughness level .
3. i didn't have that much real friend i am alone .
4.my situation is today i am living disordered,disorganized, and unhappy life lack of physical activity spend most of time alone in my hostel and after exhausting watch porn.
does anyone have idea how to handle a exhausting, and stressful life of exam of high schools and most importantly how to be happy

 

day 1 started again with yoga,meditation, and exercise. headache in back part of head .

 

day 2 successfully completed. today is not a hard day but overall 2 days of NoFap completed