new member and my story

Hello,

I just found this forum was reading around. But was not sure and afraid to share my story but here goes.

I started watching porn around 14, on daily basis. Um until around 19. When I moved out of my parents house tona dorm. Then later with my girlfriend. I'm 23 now.

I always had the urge to go as quickly as possible. So lets say that sex is short and not satisfying... i do no get satisfied from sex. I actually enjoy masturbating more... the PE is killing me. And from time to time I stop. For a few weeks and things get better. So P is causing ED and PE in my case... but i cant stop for a longer period than 2 weeks... and then the story starts all over again. and after few months when I start seeing my gf unhappy i stop again for around 2 weeks. But then i relapse again and again and again. This time its the same. But I want to stop forever... i watched some crazy stuff. Masturbated in toilets at work etc... and that is not good... I cant get aroused easily by a real life person because of the fantasies that I have in mind from P... so i go limb quick when real life experience does not meet my expectations...

So I think I need a reboot or help... can some one guide and help me through it how do I get my life back to normal? Because P is destroying my life and making me feel insecure.

 

So no insights?...

 

Hey thanks for the reply. Not getting a reply made me think that im some kind of a weirdo downloaded an app to track the days. This is my second day today.

But I do have a few questions.

Does having sex with a real person (my girlfriend) counts as cheating?
I mean the issue and the whole point is whitholding from P and making real things real again and building back the intimacy with your real life partner and do not resolve about un real fantasies?

 

Any tips to succeed on my journey?;D what you do to lower the need.

I went through some changes in life like quit smoking and started going to gym. So 2018 was a time of change. So Lets try destroying this ugly habbit as well! It might be harder than quitting smoking in my opinion xD

 

So just to get this straight. the whole point is to quit watchin P. Or quit watchin and quit masturbating or masturbating withouy P once in a while is a good thing? I'm not really sure. But quit beating the meat might benefit as well. since i do have a habit of doing it as fast as possible that might be the issue of PE.

 

Today is my 3rd day. And I'm already thinking of naughty stuff... and how amazing it would be to blow off some steam. But I have my priorities set straight. And I'm still haning in there. Well this is gonna be harder than I expected. If everyone is fine with it I will be posting stuff on the threqs just like a journal.

 

So I relapsed. After 4 days and so im starting over again from today.
Need to be stronger...
The main thing is that I have no problem keeping it hard the issue is that it gets soft during the real thing because i lose interst fast...

The issue that I relapsed was starting to get horny during work when my thingie brushed against my tight.... so i lose it when i got home...

I have a way to much imagination...