[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 42/90
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Nothing to share for now

 

1/90 After relapsed, start again. ..... struggling. .....

 

day 23 . my job is going to be fantastic

 

14/90

 

---ALL-STAR MODE---
1/90

 

17/90...

 

Day 33 done.

 

Fuck. I got to 66, 4 days over my old record. Then I fucked it up and fell back into the porn routine for half a week. I'm starting over now but am so disappointed with myself. Ive been doing this to help my ED and it really was helping me achieve erections again. But as soon as I masturbate the difficulty in getting erections comes right back as if all progress is lost. Such a hard feeling, makes me feel like abstaining from masturbation for life is the only way to feel normal

 

17 days

 

Day 31/90*.

 

First week done! 8 days in total without PM. In terms O, as a married man I’ve been interested that our sex life in terms of frequency has improved. Hopefully it’s not too TMI, but it’s quite a challenge not masturbating at all and seeing my wife as my main source of pleasure. It’s actually been incredibly confronting and I’ve felt a bit emotional about the whole thing. Is this common - do other people feel emotional once they STOP self-medicating? All of a sudden you can feel the stuff bubble up which makes you go towards porn in the first place eg. insecurity, fear, feeling lost, ashamed etc. Anyway, am thankful for this community and feel amazed it’s been a week already.

 

You can do it man! That must be hard getting so far but surely that’s all part of it. None of us are perfect!

 

47 day done
48 day progress

 

Check in day 5

 

Day 16 of no P

 

Day 3 checkin

 

DAY 0
After relapse
But I will do it.

 

Day 0/90 again..

 

I'm going to keep these boards open all day every day as an additional reminder. So far I'm doing well with trying out sexual transmutation and meditation and hopefully this will prevent any flatlines down the road.

 

Keep at it, this community is here to help each other.