I will never give up.

TheMindfulWarrior · Feb 3, 2015

Hi, I'm a 28 year old man from Chicago. I first started looking at porn regularly when I was about 15. My viewing increased over the years, and at its height I was binging for multiple hours multiple sessions a week, sometimes a day. I used it as a procrastination tool from homework, and i coping mechanism for uncomfortable or bad feelings. Mostly it stimulated and comforted me in a way nothing else did. At least nothing else that was so easily within reach without any work.

I've had a few long term relationships, and my porn consumption definitely hurt the intimacy in each one. I've struggled with ADHD, depression, and anxiety since about the same time I started viewing porn. I don't think one necessarily caused the other, but there seems to be a correlation, and my porn addiction has certainly stifled my growth and happiness over the years. I discovered NoFap on reddit about 3 years ago and I finally realized that I had a big problem with pornography. I've been trying to quit with limited degrees of success since then. I have made it as long as about 50 days without porn, but my record within the past year is only about 30. These days, I mostly go about 5 days to a week between relapses. I realize though its not about the number of days, its about changing my behavior and growing as a person.

I am working a career I don't like in a city I want to escape. I am not on the path I want to be on, and I am watching the years tick by. But most of all, I am not living a life of love. I desperately want to change, but everytime I feel like I'm making progress I've had a bad relapse. It has definitely hurt my confidence and self esteem.

I'm tired of breaking promises to myself and starting over. There are some many beautiful things in this world to experience and be grateful for. There are so many wonderful people to meet and help. I've had glimpses of a life without porn, and it is infinitely richer and more rewarding than the cycle I feel myself caught in. I am here to seek help and community. I am here to admit that I have an addiction to porn and to chart my path back to full health. I will post a journal entry here multiple times a week to keep track of my progress and remain accountable. I look forward to taking this journey with all of you. Thank you and godspeed!

CJthewise · Feb 3, 2015

HI i'm 24 year old male from Toronto and i'm new to this whole NoFap challenge, my decision to do this challenge is very simple i want to change my life, for the best i cant say i was addicted to watching porn but i did use it as a emotional escape from reality,
It really stopped me from actually dealing with the problems of everyday life, finding solutions to the best of my abilities. for example a problem would arise in my life weather it would be with girls, money , school , health , friends the list goes on , point is anything that would stress me to the point where i could't find a solution's right away i would sit in front of my computer watch about 2 to 3 hours of porn NUT!!! then feel really shitty about doing that because as we all know as MEN! we are better then that, i would then proceed to finding a half ass solution to the problem , somewhat solving that one but then creating another.
When i first heard about the NOFAP CHALLANGE i was shocked that there was such a big community and honestly i really did't think i had a problem AT FIRST then i starting doing some more research and made my decision. MY GOAL IS TO CONTROL MY INNER SEXUAL DESIRES, understand not give up what i enjoy about sex but i will be able to control my sexual energy and bring balance back to my body. right now i'm on day 7, i was going to start this blog on day 1 but that did't happen (to busy), so every 10 days ill be giving feedback on my progress and things that may be changing my my beautifier, with women , and just in general i'm defiantly looking for some feedback and tips that will keep me focused so i'm always opened to suggestions its nice to be part of this POWERFUL MOVEMENT MEN TIME TO BECOME WISE!

archimedes · Feb 4, 2015

Hi Bro!

I feel sympathy for what's you have been going, but I must admit that you must be a tough guy, having been relapse so many time but still get up and looking for ways to finally getting there. Wise people says, it's not about how many time you relapse, but about how many times you relapse but keep trying to get up and give your best again. So, do your best this time! I believe that this community will help alot. Just read story of other people, read other resources about the science of our brain, knowing how our body works, I think it will help us to think that they're actually only body hormonal reaction. So, the best things to do is to avoid, neglect, and distract yourself from anything related to porn or stuff that may bring you to relapse. If you see hot girls, throw your eyes elsewhere. Seeing it on TV, change the channel. When turning on your computer, force yourself to open nofap first - read some article or some post. It will distract you from actually craving from porn.

Never give up! I wish you the best of luck, bro!

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