Feeling like shit

Yup. I was rough till about 3 weeks. Stick with it

 

Yeah, well the purpose of this forum is to encourage and provide support for others trying to gain control over their sexuality, however behind all the sunshine and rainbows, quitting MO is often the worst possible experiance imagineable. I mean, honestly, the first 60 days, It might have been easier to climb Mt Everest.

As for repressed emotions, what I do know is that I 'feel' emotions a lot more now than than I did. My intensity and range of emotions has gone up. Im much more likely to laugh, fight, or cry now than before. Almost, like my emotions came back to life.

 

Removing P&M from my life has in a way forced me to look at myself in new and deeper ways. Like some have mentioned, I feel more emotions than before, and with that I'm also realizing that there are things in my life that I covered up or avoided dealing with. Instead I had learned to numb the pain and avoid it all by watching P and escaping into a different world.
Now that I've committed to not using P&M, I have to deal with those things. It causes for some shitty days, today being one of them. Not that I'm fighting the urge to look at P or even just M, but I feel rejected. I feel alone. I feel less than. None of these are true - I am loved, I have real friends and an amazing loving wife to go home to, and I am a good guy. But some days those feelings are there, the thoughts are pushing in, and instead of escaping with P&M, I have to deal with them. I have to ask Why do I feel this? I have to do self examination, and then I have to give it up and hold on to the truth about it all.
Sure is a hell of a lot easier to just escape, but the easy way is rarely the right way.

Don't give up. Push through and find yourself in it all. Deal with the emotions and thought that come up. Ride out the shitty days. The glory days are worth it!

 

POWERFUL AND WELL WRITTEN and that's exactly how I been feeling today man. Thank You

 

you can fight guy now you clear 8 day and in longer fight you will get better and better