Warning. Very sick story.

Yep I'm with you

I had a really messed up relapse

So... I was praising the Lord at church went home and jerked off and I'm like

Bro what the frik!

Anyways then I'm like to myself, don't you dare binge!

... but I binged thoroug the night

Then I woke up and jerked off even more

Then I tried spending time with God for help because I'm a Christian then I went for a run

And relapses again! Yeah seriously messed up right?

Anyways then I joined the nofap community for the first time any was telling all my fellow nofappers how I am sooo done with Jacking off!! No more !

But unfortunately I jerked off some more after that ):

Just so tragic like I mean pathetic and disturbing


Anyways here I am on day 1 hoping for a better horizon . Pmo must end!!!!

 

My advice is to take porn addiction seriously and be determined to get rid off it from your life. Its not natural to do PMO, its afrificial.
Dont think like "I just want to try this genre, or combination, before I quit", quit here and now.

Good luck.

 

What "woke me up" was hearing how deep peoples addictions were taking them and getting scared about my own pattern of use and seeing I was heading down the same path. Sometimes it helps to read a "crazy" story to realize you're not alone and to warn others of what lies ahead, to learn from their experience.