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Trauma after getting caught masturbating

Discussion in 'Porn-Induced Sexual Dysfunctions' started by shevro, Jan 1, 2019.

  1. shevro

    shevro Fapstronaut

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    Its been 4 years now I was caught masturbating in my hostel room, it was visible from the hostel opposite to mine through the window. It was very embarrassing for me. It left me traumatized till now. I constantly get panic attacks. I will graduate from the college in next 5 months and will move to new place. The feeling of being embarrassed doesn't go away. Please someone help me. The medicines my psychiatrist prescribed gives me stomach problem, so can't continue. Don't know how I am going to continue living, I just wanna die!
     
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  2. shevro

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    I have written about whole story, you can search- badly need help from all nofap members. Username-shevro
     
  3. I dont really get it . Who saw you after all ?
     
  4. shevro

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    My colleagues!
     
  5. shevro

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    A lot of my batchmates knows about that incident.
     
  6. Hros

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    And do they harass you about it? Have they ever mentioned it in the last couple of years?
     
  7. shevro

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    Initially they did mocked me. Later on somone would call me wanker. It did became a topic for gossiping. Those who know keep on telling every other person. One guy who was from my hometown told to few of my friends from school. The trauma it gave me is so terrible that it feels like it happened just yesterday. I seriously dont know how to tackle this situation. Please help.
     
  8. Theamos

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    Iv been caught so many times
    By my sister I can’t even count
    Guess what we all do it that is even a web site created because some ppl do it too much - your on it
     
  9. You gotta let it go man. Accept what happened ,and trust me there are people that done way worse than you did and they got no remorse at all.
    Just need to become a bit more careless. I know it sounds really hard,but you must try. If someone talks behind your back , just ignore them ,apparently they got a boring life and gotta talk trash.
    In the end you must know that even though it looks horrible, trust me ,people care very little about you and what happened. It's just that humans are as holes and like to bash others before looking at themselves.
    Most of them probably want too ,so you can even tell them that upfront.

    Hold on tight. If you will move soon things will automatically get better!

    God bless man!I hope you ll get better. And dont forget to fight hard and get rid of this addiction. It will make your life a whole lot more beautiful and peaceful.
     
  10. shevro

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    Thanks a lot! I appreciate that you took out time to read my story and respond.
     
  11. shevro

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    The reason I feel more embarrased is that it damaged my reputation at a public place, my college! Had it been at home, it wont be a big deal.
     
  12. ClaritySeeker

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    What medicine did they give you?
    Most guys M, so it's not a big deal and nothing to be embarrassed about, but it is understandable. Plus you're moving to away to college so hopefully nobody will know you there. Everything will work out, good job on trying to get rid of P.
     
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  13. Hros

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    Agreed. Don't listen to them, stay away from them, find new friends, and just hang tight until you finish college.
     
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  14. Grandpa61

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    I’m sorry my friend! The words of your’s I quoted above show your desperation. As you suggested I found your earlier post and read it. I’m so sorry you have had to suffer the humiliation and shame of being discovered by peers.

    Your life is precious and you have many friends here at NoFap that have also suffered from similar guilt and shame and their lives are precious too.

    If you are really suicidal you need to get professional help immediately. If you simply said you were suicidal to get our attention it worked. You have my attention.

    If you want an accountability partner AP and you are willing to work with someone twice your age I’ll volunteer if you will have me.

    No one should go through this alone. You can do this my friend!
     
  15. Infrasapiens

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    Instead of torturing yourself for something that is in the past, why not use this bad experience to discipline yourself and avoid doing it?
     
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  16. I think you should own it and not be embarrassed about it. Have a sense of humor about it. You think your colleagues don't masturbate? Bullshit
     
  17. Ra's Al Ghul

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    How did they catch you, did you not first make sure the curtains were closed?[​IMG]
     
  18. Exactly. Humans are such assholes at times. They quickly laugh and judge others before reviewing themselves.
     
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  19. shevro

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    Thanks a lot! Yes It would be a great help for me to have you as my AP.
     
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