Cannot ejaculate..is it due to Porn?

Hello friends, this may seem a little long to read so bear with me on this one.

I have been PMO'ing since I was 18 years old. I did it 2-3 times a day but not everyday. I would take a gap of 2 days and then do it again on the 3rd day. So this went on and on till the beginning of last year. After that, I got a girlfriend and we decided to take things slow with everything. I decided that I will never be physically demanding to her related to sex or even kissing if she didn't want me to. When she came into my life, I subconsciously started to watch porn less. I mean, before her I used to watch everyday even if I didn't masturbate to it due to the fact that I had no sexual energy left in me to do so being that I masturbated 2-3 times a day, but I still enjoyed watching it. But when she came, my frequency of watching porn and masturbating to it decreased a bit. Now it was 2 or 3 time a week only with masturbation only once. So I started to realize that my addiction slowed down due to her arrival because I was so in love with her that I started to feel guilty when I masturbated or watched porn, as if i was cheating on her.

However, after the passing of a few months, my habit became stagnant and fixed at the point where I would watch porn weekly and masturbate to it. My guilt feeling went away, possibly due to the fact that I was not in a physical relationship with my girlfriend maybe. I believe there were two reasons why I didn't want the physical side of it too soon, first was that I wanted her to be comfortable with me before we did anything like that and second I used to satisfy my physical urges with porn. Apart from the physical aspect of the relationship, we both seemed to be having a good time and enjoyed each other's company.

Then, I joined NoFap because I decided that now I have to end my porn addiction because my girlfriend started giving me physical cues of being close to me and taking it to the next level. We started some kissing and making out stuff but never ever went to sex. During my time on NoFap i relapsed thrice to porn and masturbation and got up to my feet and started again. I was not feeling bad and I was pretty self confident because I started to feel good from not masturbating.

Then finally came the sex part, when it did happen, I got a good erection and everything was good but I lost all my sensation when I was inside her. It was like I could feel nothing even though I wanted to. Before all that, the kissing and the foreplay everything was great but as soon as I went inside her, it almost flatlined my sensations and I start to lose my erection. It has happened a bunch of times with me. My girlfriend has never questioned me about these issues as she is mostly shy to talk about these topics.

So my main question was could porn have desensitized me to not feel anything when I am inside her? 2 weeks back i made a huge mistake and I masturbated to porn purposely to see whether there was something wrong with my sensation and I masturbated and was turned on perfectly. I haven't watched porn since and I never want to. I want to get my real human sensation from physical bonding with my girlfriend.

Thanks for reading friends, so am I right or is there something else wrong here with me?

 

Thank you so much for your reply Mordobarn. About my masturbation technique, I never used the death grip, I gently laid on fingers on the base of the penis and caressed it softly and i always got hard and ejaculated after a while at the same time watching porn with it. I think you are right about the thing where my brain is expecting more porn and not intimate contact. The thing is everything goes fine and I get excited and everything until I go inside, after that it just seems like a grind.

I have already started a hard reboot, been on it for two weeks. However, I have had sex with my girlfriend but have not ejaculated during that time due to the problem I discussed about.I don't think its a medical issue but I will definitely keep that in mind. As for therapy, where I live there are no therapists available. However, I have been doing some exercises and yoga to clean my mind and eating healthy food. I will talk to my girlfriend on this, the thing was we had already waited more than 9 months without anything so she was much excited about getting physical than me (because I was masturbating to porn). I'll do my best to explain everything. She is a good hearted girl and I am sure she'll understand. Thank you so much brother

 

Much appreciated ..thanks a lot