I’ve hit the peak of porn addiction

from the beginning.

A friend I grew up with, black dude 5 years older than me was always getting the girls and even before I hit puberty I was seeing bits of seedy videos his older brother had which our thoughts in my head how things “should be done” with a woman.
Fast forward a few years to my late teens,
I’ve borrowed my fair share of videos and seen my mates dick on many occasions and it was ridiculous and I’ve just got access to the internet. So the porn begins.
I started with the emo teens
As I was a bit of one at the time,
Then older and older
Once all the basic posing nude pics had been exhausted the hardcore began probably early 20s by that time it was every day at least once after work.
Now the hardcore has begun the interracial was inevitable and I always fought the thought of my friend until was about 25
As all of the porn avenues have been taken I fell victim to transgendered person and sissy porn.....
-now I have always been quite dominating in relationships with women even tho only had few due to this addiction that I admit now so the sissy porn was the really warping thing but?!... over the past 2 years now I’ve been going to local sex toys shops and spending a fortune on toys which I always bought too big as Hypnos and hardcore tend to sway to the larger side. But hey can’t park a bus in a drain pipe so it never worked and they stayed in the box but now the most dangerous thing on the internet is POPPERS HYNO/TRAINERS.
Never and I repeat NEVER!, watch them or even feel tempted to sniff poppers once!
But I suppose now I’ve gone through it it can only get better. It’s been a solid year of repeating 2 to 3 times a week hitting poppers so hard watching these damaging Hypnos that I can’t even make the sound of a fart anymore my dick doesn’t stand up when hard anymore just down and that’s with enhancers ( not mixed with poppers, that’ll kill you! ) it’s not just been psychologically damaging but physically too.
The whole ordeal has cost me my fiancé (which previously I didn’t PMO for over 6 months but can’t say exactly) and I’ve been blind to several women who are perfect relationships material.
But now after not using poppers or watching any kind of sissy stuff for over 2 months now I’ve already reverted to looking at girls which has really relieved me.
But ultimately now the 2 biggest problems with quitting all together is pure boredom work and play. All my friends either have relationships or are happy in themselves. Work is so boring and under paid so I use it as an escape at home or for 30 mins on my break.

Kinda blabberd on a bit
Thanks for reading how it’s all snowballed for me.

Smoke cbd instead of cannabis as well. Weed doesn’t help the mind state but if your addicted to it, try cbd buds- it’s a good trick of the mind and is helping me already

Much love

 

Thanks everyone.

I didn’t really give thought to the dopamine side of things but that makes perfect sense though.

 

Thanks for the reply man!
That little bottle is a bastard!, trying to learn discipline is difficult.
Good luck in your fight buddy

 

Poppers appear in he strangest of places, I spotted the one brand I never tried in a gaming shop the other day. I can’t even describe pal!