My addiction has made my personality worse

I’m not going to blame porn 100% for my personality flaws but it’s certainly been like pouring gasoline on a fire. The deeper I’ve went into my addiction the more I hated myself which led me to hating everybody else. Over the years my self confidence and self respect have collapsed which helped me become bitter, depressed and explosively angry.

The mistake I made was instead of working on my own problems and trying to self improve I would try to start fights with people to bring them down. The old saying “misery loves company” couldn’t be more true. I wasn’t content unless others around me felt bad......and that is a pathetic, sad way to live.

The good news is I’ve finally woke up and see all of this for what it is. I have to beat my porn addiction and I have to work on my personality flaws. I’m tired of being miserable and I’m tired of hating other people. Up until now I have been a waste and a sad excuse for a human being. Like I said, porn isn’t responsible for all of this but I know for a fact that it has made things far, far worse.

 

Sounds like you're growing, good job!

 

Confronting my addiction has forced me to confront other problems in my life. It’s not easy but it’s absolutely necessary.

Thanks man, I’m trying.

 

I completely identify with what you’re saying here. I feel a lot more at peace about myself and about those around me.

 

First of all, welcome to NoFap! I’m always excited to see new people join because it means more and more people are waking up.

But I wouldn’t say I’m a giant of a person. I’ve made A LOT of horrible mistakes. Things that I have to learn to live with. I’m just trying to turn the page on all of that and become a better, happier person who treats myself and others with respect.

Thank you very much for wishing me peace, that’s what I desire more than anything else. I hope you have peace as well.

 

That seems to be true. It just blows my mind how many people still believe that porn addiction doesn’t exist.

 

It definitely seems to be common. At least I know I’m not the only one experiencing these things. Most of us have similar stories and similar symptoms which means this addiction is very, very real.