Let's try to overcome the habit

Hi everyone!
I've been fapping for 8 years. I am not addicted to porn, but I am an addict to dirty fantasies. When I am alone and I see a photo of a beautiful woman I start to have it. I suppose it's because I used to it and there are some triggers, which provoke this behavior.
Never was so open about it, especially with unknown people.
Hope it will become possible to change these habits.
Thanks for creating this website and initiative.

 

Thanks!

 

It's 11th day without masturbation. Had a lot of urges for the last three days. It gets harder and harder to complete the challenge. However, I am still in the game.
I am not an addict to porn. Masturbation is a big problem for me. I have a lot of wet dreams. I think it's because I used to follow them, so I can't quickly change how the brain works.

 

It's the 26th day. The last 10 days actually were pretty easy. Didn't have a lot of urges. I suppose the reason for it was that I was always busy.
Yesterday I organized an event, where I wanted to meet interesting girls at least just to have a talk with them. There were some, but any communication with them didn't continue later. Yesterday evening and today morning I felt very lonely, wanted to do nothing and stayed in a bed a lot. As a result, I had many strong urges. I am glad, that I managed to overcome myself, but that was really tough. Being lonely is a strong trigger to even start thinking about fapping. Under lonely I mean not just being with people. I mean talking with someone, who understands you, just having a hug (nothing more) with pretty girls. Need to do something about it. Though don't know what exactly

 

It's day 34. All in all, everything is fine. However, my regime falls apart. I sleep too much and than don't wake up immediately. As a result, I have a lot of urges in the mornings. Need to change it

 

It's day 51. Can believe I am still participating for so long. Crazy. Thank you guys for creating the website.

I am currently in my hometown with family. When I come here most of the time I spend at home, so I fap a lot. However, I am already for ten days here and didn't fap. Though had a lot of urges. Anyway, everything is much better.

Before I couldn't sit for two hours alone in a room and don't fap. Now I can do it. In general, I am thinking much less about girls now. Which is cool. I can focus on my goals instead.

Still, I am used to watching pictures of beautiful girls in social media. Though I had almost no attempts to get them. I realized, that the reason of such behavior was that I like just that feeling of seeing something lure and teasing. Then I thought, whether it helps me to achieve my goals. The answer was no. Basically, I just wasted time. So now I abandoned it. I almost refused to use the phone and spend time on social media.

Once again thank you guys for creating the website.

 

Totally support it!
This post helped me a lot: https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/2i6zwv/superpowers_are_real_and_heres_how_to_get_them/
Especially rule 2.

Also, I found this app very useful: ttps://chrome.google.com/webstore/detail/crackbook-revival/fakedinbmdjifniaepnfbplcheaecebc
I was also addicted to all these social networks. What this app does - it sets pauses, while you browse you pages. So once you wait the page to download you ask yourself "is it really what I need to do now?"
Highly recommend it

 

Damn, it's 90 days! Can't believe it. Seriously, I've been into it for fucking 8 years. I can't say that I am fully recovered as sometimes I have a strong desire to masturbate. I touch myself and sometimes can't stop in the very beginning. However, in extreme cases, Panic button helps. What's interesting without fapping I started to have a stronger interest in women. So I invited several of them to my apartment for dinner. Actually, I enjoyed just having dinner with them. With one of them, I was pretty close to smth more. It didn't lead to sex, but damn I actually didn't have smth like this for a long time. This energy which is not used on fapping and thinking about girls (I used to spend a lot of time on it and it was crazy for me to find out that I just liked these teasing thoughts) is used in a way more productive way. It's great progress for me. I can't believe that i did. I started to respect myself much more now.
Thank you

 

It's day 102. Yesterday, firstly for the very long time I had sex. It was not so long as I erected quickly. Anyway, that was great!

I have a strong desire to talk and fuck women. Tried Tinder, but I can't say it worked out well. I started to spend more and more time there, so I deleted it. Considering to try to get acquainted with random girls at the streets. The problem is most of the time I work and there are no girls of my age. Those girls who know me and have a good attitude towards me live in another city. So I need somehow to make more beautiful girls know about me.

Anyway, I want to concentrate on my goals first. That's the most important thing.

 

I had a pretty tough time for the last month. So I masturbated several times.

I lost several established habits. So I start a new recovery period for 90 days today.

 

It was a pretty tough month for me. So for some time, I started to fap again just to get some positive emotions. I think it's like getting alcohol, when everything falls apart. Now I don't have online addiction. So I just started imagining how I have sex with all these beautiful women I see in everyday life. However, that doesn't lead to any results.

 

Still didn't fully recover. All in all, it's great, but there were two hard moments.
I realized that I have no emotions at all. It seems to me that I have alexithymia. I even visited a psychologist for the first time in my life. Than I found out that it's better to have spontaneous actions. So I started to buy stuff I refused to buy before and get acquainted with girls on the streets. It went great for 3 weeks! Seriously. I even gathered several phone numbers.
Then I spent a lot of time on a job i don't like. I had to work until late at night. So my regime fell apart and I fapped. Then did it for several more times. Damn, I feel how much less energy I have now. Damn.
So I want to start it from the very beginning. Benefits of Nofap were incredible for me. I am considering to be engaged more actively at Nofap community in Russia, where I am from.
Damn, that was so great without all this fap shit. Want to return to it and start having sex with a real woman. The last time I had it wad was 2 years ago. I lost so much time. Crazy. I want to have a girlfriend so much. Actually, I've never been in relationships I fully enjoyed. Never. I lost a lot in life. A lot. I want to have a girlfriend.

 

Will repeat NoFap challenge for another 90 days.
Why?
I did big progress before. Now I don't think about fapping every time I am alone. However, I still didn't succeed in attracting girls. Wanna fully replace watching pictures of nice women to talking and having sex with them.
It's time for a new grip in life.

 

The whole idea of starting new NoFap was to overcome the habit of online additcion. But damn. It's so hard. I spend in hours in stuff like Tinder. Glad didn't fap yet. Need to change my routine. And you, there are girls who want to meet with me. I just don't write them and continue fapping. Damn. I need to change this shit. And you know, there are friends who can help. But I just like this addiction. It's more pleasurable for me to continue than to write them. Damn. Sometimes I think I should be in a psycho clinic. I shouldn't be among normal people. Damn. How I live and even communicate with people. At least glad that I managed not to fap today. I need to live in a home and sleep with girls. Or at least talk with them.
At least I managed to write here. Damn. It's so hard. I just want to sit, hug a girl and talk about what bothers me. It's so hard to be alone. So hard.

 

Doing this shit again. Damn

 

Day 0. Realized that I have an addiction again. It ruins my life. I can't concentrate on work. Procrastinate a lot. Have brain fog. Will post every day here for 90 days. And one comment to another thread.