Crucial milestone reached at 230 days

So here is my story.

Hardcore PMO addict for over 20 years. That's right. Do you have any idea how much time we used to burn when AOL was still around.

Started trying to get clean about 3 years ago. Had symptoms for at least the last 15 years. Everything anyone has ever described and more.

Started to really break in July 2017. Complete bottom out by the holidays 2017. Lots of doctors visits for months. No one can find anything wrong except a little elevated blood pressure. Felt like crap for years prior.

In May 2018 I went hardcore mode which lasted about 100days. Started sex with the wife around 100 days. But it still sucked. Post coital headaches were there.

Now I'm 238 days in no PMO. I'm allowing M once a month depending on relations with the wife.

Changes:

Back and neck pain almost gone.
Penis went thru stages. For a few months it shriveled up. About 6 months in it became a hog. Very large when flaccid and very sensitive.

I don't know about superpowers but definitely a huge difference interacting with women. Recently I was out with a bunch of mutual friends wth the wifefor Karaoke. Some lady sat down next to me and kept pawing me to the point my wife was getting pissed at her. Before when a woman approached I would look at the floor to avoid any wandering eyes.
Not constantly scanning women anymore. It changes the power dynamic big time.

And here is a big one. I was looking for something online yesterday and for some reason a bunch of P SUBS popped up out of nowhere. This stuff is pervasive and these people are pushers. The difference is that I felt nothing. No urges, no need to click and follow. None of it. 1 year ago this would have sent me down a rabbit hole for at least an hour. This time it was a combination of disgust and pity for the girls.

I think I'm finally clean and unchained from the devil PMO. I won't lie however. I do still have some PAWS symptoms but they are much better than the hell on earth of the first 6 months.

Keep strong and make your relationships matter.

 

I started taking Butterbur extra, vitamin D3, fish oil, and had to go on amlodopine for BP. I changed to intermittent fasting. I only eat between 11 am and 7 to 8 pm. I just found out about histamine sensitivity a couple months ago so I stopped all dairy smoked meats ect. I've lost weight and gained half of it back. Blood pressure is down to 125/75 so they might take me off the meds if it keeps improving.

 

Yes the butterbur is PA free and I just found out about algae oil a week ago so I'm switching over.

 

Yeah,

It was really weird for me to see an image and just have like almost zero response to it. In the past I would have had a chaser effect just from a psub for the entire day.

 

One other bit of info I should add is that a couple of weeks ago some random guy sat down next to me at a bar where I was out with a buddy and started pushing his phone in my face with a bunch of P on it. I told him to put it away and if he wanted to destroy his life with that stuff it was his prerogative. He looked completely confused and continued. I paid my tab and left. I guess the gal working the bar later asked him not to come back. You have to be careful because other people will push their afflictions on you. Misery loves company.