How do you get out of a binge mentality?

I've been PMOing/binging for almost the last two or so weeks. I stop for a day or two then relapse/binge again and I can't seem to get back on the wagon. Prior to that I was PMO/Fap free for three months plus some days, my longest streak. Things were going amazingly well for me in that span of time. In that time I managed to lose over 25 pounds hitting the gym, finally getting my license after procrastinating on it for a long time, looking into what I was going to study for, meeting my long distance girlfriend for the first time, building my confidence, goals and ambitions up, etc etc etc. My mindset truly felt like it had changed for the better and I was putting all the pieces together for the other things in my life. Then I stupidly relapsed, I don't know what went on in my head, I don't think I was even aroused, with no porn though. At first I didn't feel too bad, because I didn't binge or use porn, I felt like I didn't hurt myself or progress. But in the back of my mind I guess I felt guilt and it just spilled over. A day later I relapsed again, but to porn and I binged and binged and binged. I felt like utter garbage and was so angry at myself. After that, my ambition and motivation for everything that was going well just vanished and I've been feeling empty and completely hopeless with no drive, just pathetic. When I PMO, it usually always brings back my bad habits, such as binging on food, avoiding interactions, being lazy, not being productive, you name it. I feel like a wreck. The worst part is that I'm fully aware of how bad I'll feel when I relapse/PMO, I know the consequences, and yet I still end up doing it, WTF. Being on binge mode is terrible. It's been over two weeks and I'm struggling hard to get back up there. Sometimes I don't even have urges and it still happens. It's like I'm self-sabotaging myself but I don't intentionally mean to do it. Then if I relapse early in the day, it's nearly impossible not do it again later because my mind is dead set on just starting the next day since I already ruined the day. I was really looking forward as using the New Year's as a motivator but I still ended up binging and relapsing a few days after it. Now I feel like I've tainted the year already. I've binged so much, it's like I threw away those three months for nothing and have put myself way more behind, makes me feel like I'm drowning. How can I freshly jump back on the wagon and stop this toxic binge mindset? How do you avoid these situations when they happen? Honestly anything is appreciated

 

Thanks guys. I'm on to day two but my mindset is strong again.