Cannot ejaculate...is it due to porn?

Hello friends, this may seem a little long to read so bear with me on this one.

I have been PMO'ing since I was 18 years old. I did it 2-3 times a day but not everyday. I would take a gap of 2 days and then do it again on the 3rd day. So this went on and on till the beginning of last year. After that, I got a girlfriend and we decided to take things slow with everything. I decided that I will never be physically demanding to her related to sex or even kissing if she didn't want me to. When she came into my life, I subconsciously started to watch porn less. I mean, before her I used to watch everyday even if I didn't masturbate to it due to the fact that I had no sexual energy left in me to do so being that I masturbated 2-3 times a day, but I still enjoyed watching it. But when she came, my frequency of watching porn and masturbating to it decreased a bit. Now it was 2 or 3 time a week only with masturbation only once. So I started to realize that my addiction slowed down due to her arrival because I was so in love with her that I started to feel guilty when I masturbated or watched porn, as if i was cheating on her.

However, after the passing of a few months, my habit became stagnant and fixed at the point where I would watch porn weekly and masturbate to it. My guilt feeling went away, possibly due to the fact that I was not in a physical relationship with my girlfriend maybe. I believe there were two reasons why I didn't want the physical side of it too soon, first was that I wanted her to be comfortable with me before we did anything like that and second I used to satisfy my physical urges with porn. Apart from the physical aspect of the relationship, we both seemed to be having a good time and enjoyed each other's company.

Then, I joined NoFap because I decided that now I have to end my porn addiction because my girlfriend started giving me physical cues of being close to me and taking it to the next level. We started some kissing and making out stuff but never ever went to sex. During my time on NoFap i relapsed thrice to porn and masturbation and got up to my feet and started again. I was not feeling bad and I was pretty self confident because I started to feel good from not masturbating.

Then finally came the sex part, when it did happen, I got a good erection and everything was good but I lost all my sensation when I was inside her. It was like I could feel nothing even though I wanted to. Before all that, the kissing and the foreplay everything was great but as soon as I went inside her, it almost flatlined my sensations and I start to lose my erection. It has happened a bunch of times with me. My girlfriend has never questioned me about these issues as she is mostly shy to talk about these topics.

So my main question was could porn have desensitized me to not feel anything when I am inside her? 2 weeks back i made a huge mistake and I masturbated to porn purposely to see whether there was something wrong with my sensation and I masturbated and was turned on perfectly. I haven't watched porn since and I never want to. I want to get my real human sensation from physical bonding with my girlfriend.

Thanks for reading friends, so am I right or is there something else wrong here with me?

 

Thanks for your support Zimzi. I have never aggressively masturbated with my penis, I gently laid my fingers on the base of the penis and caressed it softly and always got aroused with porn going on with these actions.

I have not been watching porn or masturbating to it since two weeks, and sooner or later I would have to open up to her to talk about it. She has never asked me about anything related to it so I never told her anything because we have never talked about such stuff before, even before we were not physical you know. I will try my best when she is comfortable enough to explain everything to her. Thanks for your help

 

I think I need to abstain from real sex as well as PMO for atleast 90 days to get my dick sensitized again to the real world like all you guys said thanks for all your advice

 

I think its the lack of sensitivity inside her probably due to lack of porn visual stimulation. I am not able to stay aroused while inside her, whereas during normal kissing and foreplay I am perfectly fine.

 

Its nothing to be embarrassed about brother. We are on the same journey here. I have felt that abstaining from Porn and Masturbation has brought back some of my sensations back to me. Yesterday during sex when I was inside her, I could feel some sensation for the first time since I have ever had sex. The sensation was not much but it was still there. This could be a positive signal and a proof that we are in the right direction. I know as the days of abstaining increases so will the sensation start to return on the dick. So keep the NoFap journey going