****TMI warning, but maybe that doesn’t matter too much on this site **** ...I had a VERY hard time getting an erection. For the most part I was pretty bad, but I’ve been told everyone sucks the first time. And sadly, it wasn’t to someone I deeply, deeply cared about either, but someone who I was going out with for a little while, whom I decided I didn’t want a relationship with (it’s a bit more complicated than that; but I’m relieved that it didn’t have to be with a hooker). When I watch porn I don’t have any trouble at all though; I’m really hoping for the best for next time and to actually follow through with these challenges because if I don’t, it may be PIED and I’ll have to end up seeing a doctor. I’m choosing to do the 30 days (again) because my life is not going in a clear direction and I want to find out what that direction will be, sooner rather than later. Or rather, wait until I’m in a place where I can almost fully support myself.
Btw, losing your virginity is seriously overrated. It didn’t really change anything other than “ok now I know what sex with a woman feels like” and maybe a little less nervous around attractive women in general for that reason but hasn’t brought anything new to the table and still lonely AF.
I never did any smoking or drinking in my youth. It just never interested me. But PMO did a number on me. I didn't realize I was abusing a drug called porn until my early 30's.