The 2019 X90 Hard Mode High Accountability Elimination Challenge

Hey @Kanger,

Great to have you back!! You're not out, this isn't elimination even though I initially called it that. You can jump back in, start checking in every day and staying clean of PMO and make the most of this. Streaks of pfree are nice but what's more important is trends, how are you doing over time. If we measure your progress over 90 days, how many times did you pmo? Measure that against another block of time and to see if you're doing better or worse over time, that in my mind is more important.

Also, no need to apologize, nothing wrong was done. As bad as you may feel remember you didn't fail and you don't need to feel bad. You relapsed twice and now you're back, that in my mind is pretty awesome!!

I'm obviously focusing on you figuring out where you were, what you want and taking steps in that direction.

Keep at it brother, you're doing great!

 

Awesome dude, you are killing it!! Excellent job on the de-cluttering. Triggers like that are usually the first step towards a slip, great that you saw that and moved on.

 

Alright dude, I like your commitment, 3 days strong, keep it rolling!

 

Dude you're doing awesome! The emotional battle we face without selves is the hardest one we'll ever face, master that and your life is at your fingertips for you to decide what you want from it!

 

Awesome awesome awesome !!!

 

ok, here's an early preview of totals

@I_AM_AWESOME 14.00
@lolman123 14.00
@glnb8 13.00
@Equanimous_breathtoair 12.50
@Esket-IT! 6.50
@Hammerhand2202 10.00
@control 7.00
@DyingWood 4.00
@Daniel1 7.00
@JustForTodayz 4.00
@rkim 3.00
@Coolyorky 2.00
@fleurette 4.00

Right now, @DyingWood & @Esket-IT! are about to be dropped off the list since they've not checked in in a week.

These guys @lolman123, @glnb8, @Equanimous_breathtoair , @Hammerhand2202 @control, @Daniel1 are going strong and show up every day.
And I'm excited for our newcomers @JustForTodayz, @rkim, @Coolyorky, @fleurette who are starting to become regulars
Overall this is turning out to be a really awesome group going. Thanks everyone!!

 

Checking in - Day 34 no PMO - looking forward to Day 40!

 

Hey that's great insight. For the "not feeling like you're successful" I've a couple thoughts, first you might need to reframe those thoughts in a new light. Here's a great article on reframing https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/stronger-the-broken-places/201712/reframing

Second, its ok to take a step back and honestly access your situation. It's good motivation to get going towards the future you want. You don't want to pike on the negativity like "I didn't do this, I failed at that, I suck at that". It's better to be like "in the past, at times, I have not done well at this" or "in the past, at times I have struggled with that", but then understand that those things don't define who you are as a person.

Once you have the wording more accurate then you can figure out where you want to go and take steps toward that goal.

Lastly and tell me if I'm being overbearing here, the PMO is a symptom of the problem. The problem is you believing the thoughts in your head and feeling down. The result is you using PMO to feel better. Al ot of people think PMO is the problem, it's not, its a symptom of the real problem. The real problem is in our heads, once we fix that the PMO goes away because we're managing our head better.

Good luck friend, I know you'll kick a$$!!!

 

ok here we are today on Day 15. It's 6 am EST and most haven't checked in for today yet.

@control and @Coolyorky are both starting to fade,

@JustForTodayz, @rkim & @fleurette are all coming on strong

Great work everyone !



@I_AM_AWESOME 15.00
@lolman123 14.00
@glnb8 13.00
@Equanimous_breathtoair 13.50
@Hammerhand2202 10.00
@control 7.00
@Daniel1 7.00
@JustForTodayz 5.00
@rkim 4.00
@Coolyorky 2.00
@fleurette 5.00

 

Awesome dude, I missed you in todays update, you actually have 11. keep it going !!