lonely, but trying to answer loneliness differently this time & happy for this forum

Hey everyone,
I'm feeling somewhat lonely tonight, with that sense of desperation that not only am I lonely now but that I will always be so, the sense that usually would have me turning to pornography. But something sparked within me tonight to come to this site, and I've felt encouraged in a new way. When I was a teenager every time I masturbated it was for the last time. In college I even managed two years without it. But it has been a rough transition to adult life these past three years and one thing I have lost is the motivation to make each session an aberration. Lately I've just given in, turning to pornography and masturbation as a matter of course. I'm hoping tonight can mark the start of something different. I just feel so lonely all the time, and recently before I found this forum resisting pornography has seemed so futile since at least then I could have the virtual women with me. I'm a virgin and have no idea when that will change, but I'm happy, really happy, that there is this community because really I think that is what pornography has been as much about (ie, trying to combat feeling alone) as lust. This has been a ramble but thank you.
Andrew

 

Hi forumer, thank you for your message! I'm sorry it took me a while to answer. I will clarify that it was two years without masturbating to orgasm, but I still looked at porn or edged.

I am very happy to announce that I have made it through my first week no PMO. I am very grateful for this forum and for all the support from this community. Next goal is ten days. Look for another message on Monday evening!