40 days - HOPE - transwoman porn

40 days without porn

Here to give you some news and hope for those of you trapped in fear and shame.
I've been hooked on porn for 15 years and on transwoman porn since the last year. I've been trying to quit porn for 2 years and always relapsed. I've decided to seek a (VERY GOOD) psychiatrist and to see him once a week to deal with anxiety and depression issues. That was 3 or 4 monthes ago and it took time to find the right one for me.

After a few meetings I've started to adress some deep issues and stay focused on keeping porn and not healthy sex from my life (hookers, massage parlors).

It's been 40 days that I'm away from it now and though I still have a lot of dreams that involves porn and seeking prostitutes, I don't have strong urges on my daily life anymore, and transwoman fantasies are now gone. It took about a month for me though, and I stay alert because I know it can come back and that if it does, I'll have to be kind with myself and don't return to guilt, shame or anger. It's a long journey and a lot to process for the brain.

I feel a lot better, I don't have superpowers but I feel a WHOLE LOT less socially awkward and a lot more grounded. I found a girlfriend who knows everything about my sex issues and help me a lot with it for she is a psychologist and knows a lot about sexual energy. We have sex, mostly with no ejaculation and it's great.

I am now very commited to stay away from lust of any kind and focus on my therapy.

I think that escalation is a part of the phenomenon but that everybody who has problems with porn and weird fantasies that don't match their true desires should take the step to seek help in therapy and address their deep issues. It's not and easy road but it may be the one that could save us.

Stay strong brothers !

 

Thank you all for the strength !

First, take the decision and don't ever look back !

Second, you will have to deal with shame, guilt, anxiety and anger. They are the ennemies of our recovery. Always keep in mind that what you have watched doesn't define you. Porn tricked us, it's a way out from other issues that you have to confrount. Be conscious that even without porn, you will still have these fantasies for a while and it's ok. Learn to feel the shame and every other bad emotion and let it go. Do not masturbate to it, even if the urge is huge. Keep in mind that it will fade, because it will.

I was hopeless for a long time but now it's gone, I can't even think about transwomen now. Just work on yourself, not just your sex life, find someone to talk to. When the urges feel uncontrolable, walk away, do something else.

You'll be fine man !!!

 

Thank you, I Will probably make a longer post about this for I know a lot of people struggle with transwoman porn and success stories are hard to find.

But for now I stay on tracks !