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Hey, buddy. Wake up. Ask yourself, why are you here? Really, do it right now, pause and think: "Why am I here right now?". Why aren't you wallowing in your own dirt like the drunken people in the street, who have a house, who have a wife, who have kids but are wasting away their lives on New Year's Day? Simple, because you want to change. This is cliche, right? Well, do you know why? It's because it's true. You want to live. Posting about your insecurities, directly exposing your self-confidence to open attack online is much, much harder than binging on porn videos. You said life, do you want to commit suicide? I know I did. Did you lose people dear to you? I did. Did you let people down? I did. If you're religious, did you forsake your GOD? I did. But, am I here today? Yes I am. Are you still here today? Yes you are. Do I want to live? Turns out I do. Do you want to live? Simple, yes you do. Am I grateful I didn't push that knife just when I was about to? Alhamdulillah, yes I was and still am. Read a bunch of attempted suicide survivors, you know, it's undeniable fact that they regret ever taking the leap, they regret ever pulling the trigger. Going back, if you have let down important people in your life, ask yourself this: "Once I go through, will they shed a tear?" What is a tear? It's a gateway to express emotion. What emotion? Sadness. They care about you. To think people will not care about you; that thought can go to hell with the devils. When you wake up each day, be grateful that you have the means, that you have the life to bring about change. Disappointed in yourself both spiritually and physically? When has that ever stopped Stephen Hawking, President Mujica, Mahatma Gandhi or Martin Luther King Jr. from living the life they wanted; to serve whilst experiencing the hardships of life. There are people much worse of than you, but don't fell bad because my mother tells: "Do you see those garbage collectors on the street, one day, once you're succesful, you can help them." You can help them. You are part of a generation of humans that has a role in society. You are playing it.



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Hey, brother. I'm with you. I have those thoughts all the time. I've never had a girlfriend. I won't have one; I'm in school. I'm overweight and introverted around acquaintances and strangers. I have these kinds of thoughts just like you do. Feel free to share them here, it's one of the reasons I'm here on NoFap. If I can't tell anybody next to me, I sure can tell someone on the other side of the world.