help please!

Take a deep breath.
Think of the reasons that you want to quit PMO.
Slow down.
Drink water.

Just by the way you write, I can tell that you are stressed out, almost manic due to your addiction. You really need to calm down, or you will PMO just to destress... And that won't work, it will only make you feel guilty and more stressed.
You might even consider guided meditation, there are many on YouTube.
You can do this. But you must control your mind and emotions.

 

Don't be afraid! You got this man! One thing that helps me is the NoFap panic button on my browser. It's available in Extensions or Add-ons for most browsers. Whenever I feel like I'm getting urges, I click the panic button and it gives me a quote to calm me down and to remember what and who I'm doing this for. Don't give up. And most importantly, when you relapse, don't shame yourself, it gives PMO a hole to attack through. Stay calm and be confident because that's exactly what PMO doesn't want! YOU GOT THIS!

 

Hey Jack, i hope you are fine.

Do you have a wife or girlfriend? Stopping PMO can be really fkn difficult if you dont have any release possibiltiy, especially if you are younger!
The best thing would be to fill your whole day with activities, but i am not going to lie, it would still leave you with the dreaded evening. If you can, try to read before you go to bed. Something you have a personal interest in. A good novel, books about religion/spirituality, personal development or communication skills. Its important that you really enjoy the topic.

Can you give me the reasons why you want to do this? What benefits do you see in your life if you stop with PMO'ing in the long run?

 

Hey Jack,

how much would you invest in yourself if you knew that in 1 year, you would meet a gorgeous woman who is willing to sleep with you, based on your physical appearance now?

The only thing she is whispering in your ear right now is:

"Jack. Work on yourself, so i can fall in love with you.
Learn how the mind of a woman works and use it to give us both an amazing time together.
Learn to love your own body, so i can love it as well.
Find the hobbies you enjoy and a job you like.
Let me be a benefit to your life, not a necessity.
And please...
Stop watching porn, so we can have beautiful sex together and you wont suffer from PIED when you look at me, down my naked body with a smile"

 

Stop beating yourself up for failing. Its a loop bro. You're stressed and depressed, relapse, which causes again more stress and depression. If you fail so what, procreational facility is a biological function, don't beat yourself up. Relax.

Set this goal for yourself:
I want to be more happy internally.

You may not realize it, but your life is very stressed, and subconsciously it might run to PMO to release the tension. Most importantly, don't stress if you relapse, ok? You have to bring your mental mind to a place of more relaxation. I don't mean get lazy and sleep all the time. I mean do thing to reduce your internal pain and stress. Like go to workout, go for a walk, meditate, face your problems directly. Diet, Lifestyle, they all play a huge role. If something is stressing you out big time, change it, or leave it.