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struggling again - sissy bbc

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by rafanal, Jan 3, 2019.

  1. rafanal

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    Well guys, i'm here to say I had a very bad relapse today, this time seeing sissy bbc porn while inserting. Before doing that, i knew i would feel extremely bad for doing that, although I didn't care and I did it anyway. I'm starting to think i'll be doing this forever omfg
     
  2. Coolyorky

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    No you won’t be doing it forever mate. Keep going. Keep making small steps. What triggered you?
     
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  3. SThompson4555

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    Have you ever considered going to rehab for sex addiction?

    What would be worse, going to rehab, or wasting your entire life brainwashed and addicted to porn?
     
    Last edited: Jan 20, 2019
  4. Lauren75

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    Rafanal, it's worth keeping in mind that you didn't always feel like this. By watching porn you changed what you wanted. That you changed once means you can change again. So don't worry that you are in some way broken or stuck as you are.

    I read you old posts and we've got a similar story. The difference is that I currently have no real desire to change. I'm a happy and functioning addict. You seem to have a strong desire to stop and that is 100% Al you need. That and time.

    Dont doubt whether its possible to go back, because it is. And you can do this if you want to.
     
  5. SThompson4555

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    There's no such thing as a "happy and functioning addict". If you aren't here to heal, get out. No need to spew your porn-addicted nonsense in here, no matter how "supportive" your comments seem.
     
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  6. Lauren75

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    Sorry if I offended you, that just seems to be the reality of my situation, tho I'm trying to change my situation regardless. Obviously, my experience isn't everyone else's and that's exactly what I was saying. He's got the will and that's the main tool he needs, so I think he'll get better.
     
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  7. SThompson4555

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    If you have no desire to change, why are you here? Don't try to normalize your addiction. It's not normal and you would not be doing what you are doing if it weren't for pornography.
     
  8. Lauren75

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    Huh? I do have a desire to change. I literally just said I was trying to change.

    Let's not derail this thread where someone's trying to find support. If you want to talk, msg me.
     
  9. SThompson4555

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    "I read your old posts and we've got a similar story. The difference is that I currently have no real desire to change. I'm a happy and functioning addict."

    You said, "The difference is that I currently have no real desire to change. I'm a happy and functioning addict."

    Now you say "Huh? I do have a desire to change. I literally just said I was trying to change."

    Pick one, "Lauren".

    The only one derailing this thread is you.
     
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  10. Lauren75

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    So, as with most things, it's not simple.
    I have no real desire to change.
    But I am attempting to change none the less.
    I have a long post about it that some folk are nice enough to be giving me advice on and you're welcome to go read it and do the same, or drop me a msg.
    But I'm not going to post in this thread anymore because rafanal deserves his thread to be about him.
     
  11. SThompson4555

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    K good.
     
  12. rafanal

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    Hello everyone. I'm not having urges since the last relapse! I know it was only 11 days ago but I'm feeling nice! I spent very good days with my girlfriend, our relationship are becoming stronger and it helps me to forget all this porn bullshit
     
  13. Congratulations on your progress. Keep it up and build the relationship.
     
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  14. That's great man
     
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  15. SThompson4555

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    Awesome! Keep going!
     
  16. Lauren75

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    11 days is awesome! Well done! Keep going raf!
     
  17. rafanal

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    Hi everyone,

    I am feeling kinda sad today because of the job I currently have.

    I have a bachelor degree in chemical engineering but I have never had the opportunity to work in that area. I studied a lot during my college, lost hours and hours studying. I started seeking for intership when I was at college and I have always been rejected by the companies (maybe because I was shy but I always tried my best on the selection processes and managed to speak well and put my ideas on the table), so I have never had the opportunity to work with my field of study.

    Some months ago I had to accept a not so good job that has nothing to do with my field of study because I needed money to pay my bills and I still do. I am still searching for job in the chemical area but it is hard nowadays because my country had a bad crisis some years ago and it is still recovering from it.

    Today I was moved for a worse function in my current job, with less perspective of achieving a better place in the company I work. Today I am sad. My boss said this is a temporary and soon I'll be back to my previous function, but I don't know if he was telling the truth.

    All this lack of opportunities in my field of study drove me very depressed in the past 5 years. Some months ago I had to go to a therapist because sometimes I thought of taking my life away. It seems that I'll never get a good job. I finished my bachelor degree 2 years ago so it is even harder for me to get a job in my field of study because companies want people who did internship, but as I said, I couldn't manage to do it while I was at college.

    I know this is not the place to talk about jobs etc but somehow it makes me feel better to share it with someone, and today I realized that when I am sad like this I tend to want to PMO more than the usual, and specifically sissy porn while using anal toys and all what have been discussed before in this thread.

    I'm 25 days without any kind of PMO, but sometimes I catch myself thinking about it and the infamous sissy stuff.
     
  18. rafanal

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    Hi everyone

    Today I was walking back to home after work and while I walking I saw a very sexy fishnet stockings with a sexy lingerie on a shop window and I felt mesmerized. I started imagining myself wearing it and being used as a sexual object by men.

    Will I ever be "normal" again? Omfg I try to, but sometimes I just think I should give up and accomplish all my fantasies, but the problem is that I guess I'll probably like it and never go back
     
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  19. You're only 37 days in. Give it more time dude. If you were normal once you can be normal again. Just do what you know is right for you.
     
  20. pavx92

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    I agree with others on here who've stated that edging doesn't work. Edging is a thing to do if you are trying to last longer and if anything intensifies addiction to porn because you learn how to stay on the edge of ecstacy for soooo long. so yeah just drop the edging youll be fine
     

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