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A Year and a Half

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Prov2611, Jan 18, 2019.

  1. Prov2611

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    Well. I made it a long time. It's become a problem again. I really don't have time to add a lot today, but I will be headed in that direction. Mostly, I need some people to hold me accountable. All those people in my life aren't around anymore really.

    I wish you all the best, and I hope your day is going great, and you feel terrific.

    My plan is a 90 day, PMO reboot.

    I did all three yesterday.
     
  2. romlel

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    Hey,
    Great job coming here, if your 're really motivated I can be you're accountable partner.( Mp me if you are)
    Failing happen, you need to keep your awreness, be conscious of what you're doing.
    Nofap is a way of lifestyle, transition taking time is normal.
    Keep reading post on nofap, healthy lifestyle daily.
    Rebooting is for the mind, body and energy.
    Have a nice day!
     
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  3. Prov2611

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    Completion of Day 2:

    I am back on the bandwagon. It's surprising really how much just one act of self control can be motivating to other areas of life. I'm certainly appreciating things more.

    I hope whomever you are, reading this, and yes I mean you, have a terrific day and night.

    - Prov
     
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  4. Mattew

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    Porn is a bitch. You relapsed after 1.5 years and totally fall back into porn?
     
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  5. vanilla gorilla52

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    Hi my brother in mind, great job I am porn addicted since 35 years. I am now on my 41st day. You all give me so much Motivation. I never thought that I could change my life. Now I found life again. To do NoFap improved my life so much that I never ever want to look back to my old life. I would like to be your partner. Keep strong my friend. If I can do it you will make it also
     
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  6. vanilla gorilla52

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    Hello my friend, I have the greatest respect ✊ for you. You did such a long time. Of course it must be frustrating for you to have relapsed. But I don’t think that you will totally fall back. You Must have learned auch much in the past 1,5 years. Remember what has helped you in the past. You have fallen. It’s not about perfection. It’s about progress. Please start again. Yes porn is a bitch. Don’t give her control over your life again.
     
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  7. Mattew

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    I think you quoted the wrong message :)
     
  8. vanilla gorilla52

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    Yes I am sorry but porn is still a bitch
     
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  9. xxmemel0verxx

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    Damn 1 year and a half
     
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  10. Prov2611

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    Day 5:

    No porn, but I was dating a girl on and off. It's a long story, but that relationship ended up being pretty toxic to me. I fell to a point where I was willing to do pretty much anything to make the days go by and not have to think anymore. And then I remembered...

    From what I can remember now, this has been much easier after that long without it. But still, I knew I had tendencies, and that those could lead me right back to where I was.

    Plus, what kind of scoundrel was I being not helping the community that helped me so much, I missed being on here.

    All that being said, fairly good days so far! There's a definite correlation with productive behaviors and staying away from PMO.

    Hoping you all have your best day.

    - Prov
     
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  11. Prov2611

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    Day 7:

    Got pretty triggered today, but came here! This is good place. In any case, I've noticed a lot of positive improvements in the last week. It's a benefit to me to at least know I've got one thing going for me on days I don't PMO. It's like a day's check box being checked off. I need to lean into that feeling.

    I hope everyone's day goes well!

    - Prov
     
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  12. vanilla gorilla52

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    Great to hear that you have made it. I am proud of you
     
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  13. Prov2611

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    Day 8: Today will be an easy day, but tonight may be difficult. I'm forecasting a lot of time to myself, and that's always a danger. I will plan on filling my night with productivity and going to be especially early if the urges come on.

    On Vanilla Gorilla's recommendation, I actually have an even better idea. I'll plan on going to the gym right after work today. That seems like an excellent plan.

    All the best, and the best to you all!

    - Prov
     
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  14. BigOne79

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    Keep it going brother! You are an inspiration to all of us on this board and a really big one to me. When through the beginning of your last reboot did you feel starting a relationship was good ...
     
  15. vanilla gorilla52

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    Have a great work out. I am proud of you
     
  16. Prov2611

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    Well....

    It didn't go as planned, but it didn't go great.

    I ended up calling my ex-gf on Friday night and going to dinner. It was uncomfortable for me, which was weird. It felt different. That was the relationship I let get toxic. By the end, only drama propped it up, and I became dependent on the up and down emotional roller coaster it was.

    I didn't PMO Friday night. I did call her and talk for an hour about how things were odd, and that made me feel like crap honestly. I then went to a bar, and fortunately just had one drink.

    I leaned on my friend the rest of the night, and watched a good movie.

    I woke up at 5am on Saturday morning, completely sad, lonely and weak. I'd had a triggering dream and it was everything I had not to look at P. I caught myself edging and finally got back to sleep without relapse.

    Saturday went great. I have been talking to this girl I know in Med School, and she's neat. I don't think I'm ready for whatever it is we could be is the thing.

    All that being said, the streak lives. It was a tough weekend.
     
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  17. vanilla gorilla52

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    Hi my friend,

    That’s sound like a tough weekend. But you have made it. Great job I think it was good that you have relied on a good friend. What really helps me is to get in touch with real people. People over porn
     
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