Day 1.

Hey all,

Call me Scott. I've masturbated and looked at porn since I've been 12 or 13. Never really considered it a problem, I was social, had no trouble talking to women or getting laid. But now I'm in a phase where I'm unemployed and depressed, having issues with my girlfriend of all kinds and looking at porn and masturbating multiple times a day out of boredom and seratonin depletion.

I'm having awkward sex with my girlfriend and though I'm having sex with her body, my mind is elsewhere and I always end up coming inconveniently because of whatever gross fantasy has popped into my head.

I've also self diagnosed myself with Pure O form of OCD and relationship OCD. I don't know if a porn addiction and fapping are because of this, or because it's a seratonin fix, or what, but it isn't helping!

 

Today is day 4.

Day one was easy enough, then was with my girlfriend all weekend but now she is at work and I'm horny and bored so I suppose it's time to distract myself with chores...

She is 100% supportive. It's better sex for both of us and I will have a much better attitude and outlook on life as well. We talk about this and she is encouraging. She seems to feel bad about my decision to practice male continence but as I remind her, sex doesn't always have to end on an orgasm.

Tl;dr day four, no P or M and one O with the girlfriend.

 

OCD=obsessive compulsive disorder. Some people with OCD have intrusive sexual thoughts or sexual thoughts that occupy their minds constantly.

Yes, different than a porn addiction but these different disorders also work together in many ways.

 

Today is day 5. I had a great time with my girlfriend last night but no O and now I am very horny, had horny thoughts all night (didn't sleep well)...time to get out of the house!

 

Day 9. Still NoFap, still no P but caught myself trying to search for non-P cute girl pics....

 

It's Thursday and I've relapsed twice. Both times have happened after having an orgasm with my partner after practicing male continence. So like any drug, after that orgasm I wanted more but my lover went to work and I was home alone and fapped.

 

Today is my new day 0.