The 2019 X90 Hard Mode High Accountability Elimination Challenge

Checking in. I've been busy with a bunch of things, work is pretty stressful at the moment, I know that's all in my head.

Rock solid on pmo though, no urges. I actually had a kick ass moment this morning while looking thru my downloads for a meditation file.

I noticed this one video file which had a porn suggestive name through it wasnt straight upporn sounding. I immediately got curious and wanted to open it but I said, it's likely p so just delete it. I knew if I saw only a moment of p it would trigger me and I'd be fighting it for the rest of the day.

I'm so grateful I deleted it.

Huge win for me!!!!
Have a great day

 

Checking in though I think I did earlier. I just had a close call and I immediately came here. It wasn't even a close call really but you know, some of us said we were going to lay off social media for a while. This was a few days ago and since then I've not been on anything.

It's been a super stressful and busy week. The week's over and here I am alone and I had this huge urge to go to igram. The idea of course was nothing explicit but I knew I was really lying to myself. It might have started that way but it was not going to end up that way.

As soon as the first image loaded and before the site even complete loading, I remembered what we said about laying off social media and I killed the browser. I came here instead and was reading some sad stories about guys who are very addicted to this and I lost all desire.

Anyway, another day another urge killed haha.

 

Here's the scoreboard for today, lots of good messages in the group today. Take care tonight and tomorrow, weekends are most times our weak points.


@I_AM_AWESOME 25.00
@lolman123 25.00
@glnb8 24.00
@Equanimous_breathtoair 20.50
@Hammerhand2202 20.50
@Daniel1 17.50
@JustForTodayz 15.00
@rkim 12.00
@fleurette 15.00
@biokat 8.50
@Harshveer 1.00

 

Checking in day 15 of 90 day challenge (day 45 of no PMO in total for me). Doing good. Browsed this morning through courses on Insight Timer app, found a few ones I'm interested in: Breaking the vicious cycle of addiction and Overcoming food addiction. Maybe I'll try one of them out, they seem to have substance.
Thanks for the advice guys, I appreciate it very much. Stay strong everyone!

 

Awesome! That's what I like about this group. Here we don't hang on whining about how hard it is, how miserable we are in this addiction, instead, we persevere, we give each other strong advice and we continue. It's like taming the mind with the help of badass coaches, absolutely free of charge
Curtsy to all of you guys here

 

Checking in! Day whatever we're on, I'm on 33 myself. Just went for a 2 hour run / walk, got a little lost. It was fun but I am exhausted right now. I'm clean and pretty solid. Despite the social media ban I was on youtube last night, my brain wants me to make up the excuse that it's not social media but regardless my intentions weren't the best so I shut that down. Not as quickly as ig earlier but the win is that I closed it.
Earlier this morning my thoughts were trying to make me feel guilty about that. I'm doing so much better than I ever have before on this.

Anyway, calling myself out. I'll be media free today. I only really use youtube for motivational or education purposes but not sure that'll be today. That's usually in the car.

Great job everyone, we got a really great group going here, I'm proud to be a member. Thank you all.