The best failure ever!

Nice bruh!

 

congrats on 30 days

 

Congrats bruh

 

@Clarke ,

How old are you? I'm asking because you have a quick recovery and maybe its a little better because you are in better shape.
As for your opposition about objectification, I understand your views. It did help me to get hard again with my wife to stop looking at others in a sexual way. If I was single and looking at dating, well I would not totally stop looking at nice ladies.
But in the couple, I found that coolidge effect gave me a hard time in my bedroom...I got my Ed from finding real sex with wifey too vanilla. So I stopped to think about sex as a concern altogether and this is what made me recover, or so I believe.

I'm glad you are getting back into the action, this is what matters!

 

Did it change my life? Nope. I had great energy then, and I do now. Wife hates me then, she still hates me now. My wife slept in one bedroom then and I slept in a different one. We still sleep in separate bedrooms. I do enjoy her sarcastic remarks directed my way when she watches TV. It's very passive aggressive and I find this psychology fascinating. A character on a TV show will complain about a lack of sex. She makes comments of agreement. After dinner she sleeps on the couch (ignores me and the rest of the family most nights). Is quick to anger if I talk to the kids without her present (but she is sleeping). Then, after her evening long nap, she goes to bed - late. About 11:00 PM to 11:30 PM. In the morning she complains about how tired she is. Huh. I cannot stay up that late - one reason for separate bedrooms. I have no idea how to get close to her, again. Not sure I care. This NOFAP thing is for me. Similar to how people will lose weight or learn a new skill - they do it themselves.
Anyway, I am not discouraged about NOFAP. But, did it change my life? You decide.

 

Not quite sure how to take this... I sense some dark humor in your writing & it is a tiny bit comical.

You have thrown the towel in, eh? Full of self-pity or you really just don't give a shit?

I kinda like your wife

 

I love the blunt honesty of this!

 

Let's do this.

 

Thrown in the towel? No.
Dark humor. Yes. I am glad it came through.
Self pity? No.
Not giving a shit . . . I do give a shit. This NOFAP thing is for me. To prove to myself I can do it. I've done things in the past to prove to myself I can do it (e.g., earning an advanced degree, losing 40 pounds - and keeping it off, learning new skills in software applications, analytical statistics, learning to play the piano, learning a foreign language, martial arts, speed reading, blah, blah, blah-full-of-myself-crap-goes-here). No, I am not giving up on this NOFAP thing.
My wife. Yeah, you gotta love her. She is sticking to her guns on this one. Although I would like a relationship with my wife, I understand why she feels the way she does. I don't blame her, I understand her.

 

You're light years ahead of others.

Use it to your advantage & hang in there

 

nice post, man! Glad you did it.