Hello there :)

It's very easy to convince ourselves when we wish something to be true

 

bobross is right - listen to him! I will go even further. That is very dangerous thinking! You have had 11 days without porn, so you thought you would look at some porn! What? Do you realise how crazy that is. That is like the alcoholic that drinks spirits to excess. After 11 days abstinence, he decides to have a pint of beer! Do you understand your problem? You cannot recover from porn addiction if you are going to test yourself like this Beermix! Come on! Avoid porn like the plague!

You cannot say, "I want to recover from my porn addiction by swapping one genre of porn for yet another!"

 

you sound like a youngish person and I think your intentions are very noble. You might want to visit the section for older people trying to dump porn from their lives. They mostly say they started very young, like you, and didn't think much of it, like you, and they never thought it was a problem, like you. Unfortunately, it IS a problem for us. These seemingly little habits grow and grow until they are a part of you that you can't let go of. You might consider not looking a images at all that you find arousing. Leave the confines of your isolation and go out into the world and meet girls who (or whoever) that you want to associate with. Know well that there is somebody out there who would LOVE to meet YOU and just keep on truck'n and you will cross paths with them. Then explore sex the non porn way. You'll find it a rush beyond belief. I fear for your generation - the gen that never was allowed to grow up without porn. I am sure if you look into this you'll find that you'r gen has challenges way more difficult that any before as far as healthy sexual relationships go. I don't believe porn enhances sex in the long term. I vastly believe it KILLS it. Just look at all of the ED issues that men have from handling themselves excessively. I can tell you this.... since I stopped looking at porn, the everyday women in my life (my wife) looks so sexy. Today, I could stand outside barking at the moon until my throat bleeds to get a chance with her between the sheets. Things are different now. After 45+ years of porn I can tell you... porn sucks. It will ruin you. Learn how to kick it to the curb and put a boot in its face, walk away. You'll be the BIG man in town when you do. You'll feel it, and those around will know it.

Good luck with your pledge. I hope you do really well. It is nice to see a younger person who is recognizing this issue for what it is.

DC

 

Our addicted brain makes some very compelling arguments on why you should reset, it all seems very reasonable and logical. Believe me, there's no such thing as a reason to do it, it's all in your head mate. It's not all coming in the form of urges, those are straightforward. It's the addicted thinking that's subtle and most dangerous

 

Shame has no place here, the point is these kind of thoughts are the same thing as urges, your body craving PMO.