The 2019 X90 Hard Mode High Accountability Elimination Challenge

hey everyone, here's the score board. It's great to see everyone checking in and helping each other out. We're close to the half way point which will be awesome!!

@I_AM_AWESOME 38.00
@lolman123 36.00
@glnb8 35.00
@Equanimous_breathtoair 28.00
@Hammerhand2202 31.00
@Daniel1 29.50
@JustForTodayz 28.00
@rkim 13.00
@fleurette 27.00
@biokat 11.50

 

Good planning man!!

 

Check in day 58.

 

Nice job stopping man, doing that is part of this journey. You;re building up tolerance, becoming aware of what you're doing and making the right choices by stopping, congratulations!!

 

Good job man, you don't need old baggage hanging around. It's time for NEXT !

 

Checking in, i'm feeling annoyed today due to work issues. I took the day off so that I could enjoy myself rather than waste my time at work. I was tempted a few mins ago but then decided to come here instead because I knew that would start the battle that I don't want to waste any more time doing. I've wasted so much time in my life that it pisses me off. Granted I'm going to spend the day doing what I want which may include doing nothing but I'm giving myself permission to destress and enjoy a mental day off.

HAve a great day everyone. Remember, p is BS, it's not real, its so fake its ridiculous. When on it, you're brain is enjoying chemicals and you're enforcing a bad habit. All is not lost, there's is always time to make better decisions!!!

 

Hey, I checked in yesterday and then I relapsed. M (edging) plus P - and I could not get off on my own even to P bc of this deathschlick or however its called. Scary. Fuck this poison. Need to resume my journey again.. It all began out of texting sexting etc. Trigger: loneliness.

 

Sorry to hear that fleurette but good that you're picking up where you left off. Loneliness is such a difficult thing to handle. You're doing great!

 

Checking in, rough night and morning emotionally. Work issues spin in my head makes me irritable for all other aspects of my life. I can see when I'm in it and try to handle it but I still struggle. P is right there too ready to handle it for me. Not the answer at all.

I read this good post by James Clear, the author of the book I'm reading about Habits, where he talks about how long it takes to create a habit. Here is the posting. What we're trying to do by creating a new habit can take as little as 21 days or 8 months. The really good news I took from that is where said, if you miss a day it doesn't reset you back to 0.

So every time we relapse, we might reset our counter but we're not resetting building a new habit. We're still moving just as we were on that journey. He does mention that it's best to have 1 miss rather than 2 misses in a row.

Anyway, hope that helps.