The Race to 90 - To the victor goes the title

Hi guys, I haven't been online much lately, so apologies... been extremely busy, just started a new job after a few months out of work which has been a shock to the system!
I'm starting to develop new routines, and intend to post every 2-3 days.
I did a lot of reflection after a recent mini-relapse and have decided to focus everything on the continuing battle with porn - as opposed to M - but moderate the latter. I feel they are connected but not the same.
I took time to set up my new phone and laptop so that the porn blockers are almost bullet proof, and I can't change the password. It should be very difficult to encounter porn but there comes a point where the 'substitutes' (social media, youtube, google images etc) cannot be blocked - I have to face these battles head on.
I have set Friday evenings as the day that M (without the internet) is allowed each week. If I don't choose to progress this then I have to wait another week (as suggested by a good friend on this forum)
Here goes!....

 

I think so, yes. Because I thought that when we post or when I see people post, they are posting new threads and not just replies. I don’t know, if it’s a group thing to reply to each other’s post. If so, I’ll keep doing what I’ve been doing since joining the group.

 

Welcome buddy, we all know the feeling too well. I started at 13 and now 28 and it kept getting worse. I’m glad you are apart of this group. Let’s push for 90 and beyond! We got this!

 

Thanks for the warm welcome guys and thats some sound advice JR-62! Glad to hear i'm not alone Godsent7 and thanks for the encouragement we will make it to 90 together, looks like are day counter are pretty close to. I'll keep you guys posted on my progress i usually get hit hard around day 8. I'm curious if you guys could give me some insight on how you have coped with P insomnia? like i said im golden till day 8 then my sleep schedule goes to hell and it's all downhill from there.

 

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/tools-for-change-recovery-from-porn-addiction/♦solo-tools/sleep-suggestions-for-porn-recoverers/

I found a pretty good resource if anyone's interested.

 

I have completed 3 full weeks now and it feels like forever... like I never did something else...
If I didn't had the urges I would believe myself.
But since I do have the urges I have to fight every day. Fight for myself, fight for the future, fighting alongside my brothers and sisters.
Keep on going...

 

Wow.. that moved me.. !! Nicely put

 

2 days down 88 to go no issues as of late just the occasional thought drifting through my mind no strong urges yet. I would have already done it if it wasn't for you guys though. So thanks for having my back even when you didn't know you had my back. I don't know if you guys are religious but either way i'm praying for you good night and stay strong.

 

Totally got your back, this is not a battle to be alone in. I am religious, thank you for your prayers. I will be praying as well. Trust me I need it.

 

Day 40 of 90: 24hrs of weakness. Today was barely won. I intentionally wandered into content that is the gateway to PMO. While I didn’t walk more than a footstep past the gate, yet I find myself struggling to control my thoughts and drive. As I look around me for the triggers, I find that I have been listening to a podcast that has parts that are massive triggers. And I must cut it out if I wish to maintain my subriety. I am in need of your helpful words and support. I have been through this enough to know that if I don’t reach out the habits will win. PS this group and knowing that I was going to post tonight was the ONLY thing that pulled me through.

 

Thank you Game4g

 

We are here for you man everyone knows that feeling. That's almost always how i end up failing, i start to skate around the edge until i get to close and fall in. Success or failure i'll always have your back and be here to cheer you on or help you back up. Every day is a battle and you have one 41 battles i believe i you.

i know this is corny but it always gives me motivation when i read it so i'll leave it here for you.

"I see in your eyes the same fear that would take the heart of me.

A day may come when the courage of Men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day.

An hour of wolves and shattered shields when the Age of Men comes crashing down, but it is not this day!

This day we fight!

By all that you hold dear on this good earth, I bid you stand, Men of the West!"

- Aragorn

 

This helps thanks.

 

Keep going brother. I definitely also will be praying for you and everyone involved in this group. I’m extremely glad I found this group.

 

Prior to me joining this group, I started no PMO on 02-12-19. It has been 6 days and I tell you guys, I feel so empowered I could cry. I had a very strong and dangerous urge today, but I choose to go to the gym as I do so often and I feel a whole lot better. Also, I thought about this group and saw I far I’ve gotten and it really kept me from giving in. Usually around day 7 and 8 it has always been tough for me in the past, but I really feel encouraged this time to keep going beyond 90 days and make this a lifestyle for me.

 

Just checking in. Today was okay my urges and thoughts got stronger but they are still at a level im able to manage.

3 days down 87 to go.

 

Godsent7, I know exactly what you mean. 7 to 8 days has always been my cracking point in the past. But being here and being heard is the greatest support and success that I have had. If I can do this anyone can. Keep posting.