20 day challenge [join me]

I don't even know what day I'm anymore but the urges today hit me like a train wreck. Again I peeked but didn't edge or relapse ofc and this is something I gotta control as I think it's hurting my reboot. All apps deleted let's get it

 

Today I was way too sloppy and let myself search for P again (peeked for a few seconds)... nothing more but it's only hurting me. I'm gonna make a concerted effort to cut this out from tomorrow ONWARD. Do this and I'm good. Keep going all

 

alright gents, it is with great regret I have to restart this challenge.
I had over a week of easy days. today the urges hit like crazy and i simply wasnt ready for it.

35 days or so, i am not particularly impressed that i let my guard down.

I can positively say I am also unbelievably addicted to technology in general.

Here's what I am going to do to ensure this doesnt happen again.

put my smartphone and laptop somewhere I cannot get it (the attic or father's car etc...)

only use communal computer when someone is in the house and on the days i need it for work.

sell my playstation.

I have relapsed so many times now and even though i have put some good streaks together, it is just too easy to relapse and relying on willpower simply wont do it.


The only upside is that it was a fairly quick session and i am not going to binge. tonight is the last night I have my phone/laptop/PS4 on hand.

Its time i get a grip. If you dont see me all that often on here, i will make sure i update weekly. for everyone on a streak, I tell you: dont look back. Its not good down here.

until next time fellas

A

 

yes sir. thanks for the kind words.

In life in general I would like to think I am pretty disciplined, but when it comes to nofap, I find it so damn hard to succeed.

I just need to give myself no choice. that way, it is impossible to fail.

Keep going yourself, 13 days is no easy feat.

 

yes sir lets get this. my relapse was pretty quick and i am determined to beat the chaser effects. i believe this will stand me in better stead for a quick reboot rather than just going on a mad binge and starting from scratch. I've also put away my PC and phone so i am not constantly distracted by pointless social media and i dont keep downloading reddit and other apps for 'one small peek' as ANY searching for P is just hurting my progress. lets keep going man

 

Back on my 20 day challenge... I know whats in store for me... Gotta be rock solid and not even peek

 

Yea mate, I am gonna do my best with this now. I know its just gonna be brutally difficult for the first 2 weeks because i have a huge amount of free time on my hands at the moment, even with studying and gym etc. I've done it before, and I am determined to do it again now. Although i talk to people daily, the lonliness isnt helping. I am just wishing i started my job now and most of my time would therefore not be free, and nofap would be a whole lot easier. then again, no excuses. lets get it