35 and Older Accountability Group

Having a good day and staying busy building these wooden flags. Right now my goal is 30 days, I just want to keep it small and take it one day at a time.

 

Checking in. I have two days off, am enjoying my streak and need to stick to my to-do list and avoid surfing.

 

Hi, I’d like to join the group, when there’s a vacancy. Thanks.

 

Well said @artifact; its like trying to find an escape. Moderation is the best thing and not a binge thing. The P however needs to be gone...its a drug! I keep saying it and giving in
Need to own up and be responsible! Have to shape-up my life myself - nobody else will do it for me.

 

Well I guess you get more anxious, my eating habbits change a lot in first 90, but then they went regular again...

So, Im here, back at 0. I was feeling good in the 60, as you all know felt pretty bad at the end of my 90, and now I when a couple of days and now at 0 again. I want to get 90 again, but I found M less harmful than before, I know its just a trick from brain, but have to convince myself again, I think that if i can pull a full 10 days that will give me the push I need...

 

No no no no
Will try as much to remind everyone & myself and keep more active here as well as in RL.

 

Hi!!! So something good happened to me and I want to share....

What good happened to me? I was feeling horrible... yes without control, I was at work this morning and felt terribly violent and I thought to my self, I havent felt like that in months, what is different?! M is different. So I realize that in my abstinence period I felt a little depressed, a little anxious, alone and other things but never violent, that means that I was in control of that, and that is something I didn´t realize happened in my 90, and I think its probably the best, because it does mean that you gain a lot more self control, and the other things they probably wore off with time.

So here I go for more, more control over myself.

Abrazos!

 

Thanks @artifact we are all in this together. Great to be part of this group!

 

Still in there with 66 days. Anxious about the next 24 hours, lots of stuff to do.

 

How does that make you feel anxious? most people relapse when they've got nothing to do all day.

 

I'm checking in. I've been away for a couple of days. Unfortunately I relapsed last week, but I've lately been able to get back on track easier than before I started nofap. I spent a lot of time with my wife last couple of days. We watched a show where unfaithful partners where caught by going through their phone records. Although I've never looked for something intimate with another woman (and never will), I do feel guilty and a cheater about my PM as my partner doesn't know about it. For the last couple of months I wondered why I was trying to quit as I don't feel that addicted and don't struggle with ED or any of that stuff. I now know that I want to do it for my partner, she trusts me entirely, while I'm not being honest about my PM. I wondered whether I should tell her, but I'm afraid that she will be very upset about it as it has been going on during our whole marriage. The only other option than for me is to entirely abstain from PM. After watching the show she asked me to promise her to always be faithful, I said yes. And that's the end of it, I've never broken a promise to anyone (except to myself), so I how hard it may be, how strong the urges might become, I won't go back on that path.

 

You have a wonderful motivation for getting PMO free.

 

can i get in on this? I think this will really help