The Race to 90 - To the victor goes the title

I am struggling today my mind tends to keep wandering back it PMO fantasy thoughts. I could use some incouragment. The drive is there it’s just on medium on the backburner. Now that I am more mindful of these moments what do you all do to handle them at this early stage?

 

Sorry for not posting the last few days, I’ve been on vacation and with no internet. I’m back and I’m pushing through, since the last time I’ve been having a lot of urges and slipped up, but I’m back. It’s been two days no.

 

Thanks, I needed this.

 

Day 49 of 90: While today had it's struggles it was great to get it out by posting earlier today. Overall the 24hrs were super positive. I feel incredibly grateful to God for being the strength and wroth that I continue to enjoy. And you all are a big part of that. I went years before I made it to this point. I have felt like the weakest and most shameful person in the past. I can't believe how far I have come. Thank you for lifting me in my times of need. Without all of you I would have lost my way a long time ago. On to the next 24hrs

 

All the best to you all here.

 

Stay strong buddy.. go outside if you can.. stay away from media for a while.. do what u like.. read , play outside, go shopping, go walk ariund in a mall

Do something but stay away from media..

Ps when i get strong urges I take 3 4 cold showers a day.. helps a lot and its like -6 here in canada.. lol

 

You’ve made so much progress, stay strong brother. We’ve all been there, but you are able and Capable of overcoming anything!

 

The last few days have been amazing for me, I feel empowered again. I want to make it past day 8 and beyond. Still taking it a day at a time.

 

Day 50 of 90: thank you for your support and strength. You really pulled me through a tough spot. The last 24 hrs were good. I felt in control and capable. I couldn’t do this without all of you. Thank you

 

No need to thank.. just doing our job.. we will need you one day

 

Day 51 of 90: 23 out of the 24 hrs were great. But in just the last few minutes I wandered into danger zone of content and allowed myself to stay. And then I into a P image and in a split second I was out of there. I must admit that I saw an image that must be defined as P. And I can't decide if I should start over again because I got right out of there. However I would like to purpose a penalty for knowing full well where I was and what I was going to run into. I think a minus 5 to 10 days is appropriate. But I will leave it up to all of you. Let me know your thoughts. And if needed I am willing to change the number back to Day 0 of 90, because I'm in this for the long run. Now on to the next 24 Hrs. "Lift your chin, and square your shoulders and directly face the things that challenge you. And you will find pride in yourself, rather than shame"

 

I think this is the first time that has happened.. because its its first time i think there should not be any panelty.. from now on this should be a rule.. if any one does make a mistake they will be have a 10day panelty..

Stay stong JR.. you did the right thing

 

No penality this time as the person quickly deleted the porn image. However if it happens again there be some penality for anyone that does it.

 

Day 1 of 90: After some thought I have decided that I will move forward looking to the next 24hrs. Too much hype was placed on my past rather than my future. I actually think this is good for me to make this choice now. I would be more difficult for me if I was driven to it by shame. I will admit that there is a part of me that is thinking if I am at ground zero may as well. I tell you this simply to get the thought out and written down because I have gained so much personal strength and I want to build on that not leave it behind. Keep up the good work. And ON TO VICTORY IN THE NEXT 24Hrs.

 

Thank you for sharing and your honesty. You are doing really well. Dont get discouraged. You got this.

 

Well that that all went to hell in a hand basket. I fell apart today and relapsed. I have to admit that I lost a lot of modivation by cutting back to the number 0. With my intentions being to be done with PMO for the long term I think this is a good moment to stop and revaluate where I stand mentally.