Reached 90 days!! Now considering to fap again

SO I did it! I didn't fap for 90 days straight, first attempt. It has been an interesting journey, and it has changed me in certain ways. I have stopped thinking about pornography, but sex is still a state of mind. I have tried to change my view on sex, but I still want to treat girls a little bit like in pornography, fetishes that I probably developed through porn. This will never change I feel like. I am who I am, and certain things and qualities in girls simply turn me on.
This journey has been difficult in many ways. I have been flatlining 90% of the time, which challenged my motivation to continue, as minor PIED is the reason I started nofap in the first place. Sometimes I felt like my dick died and there was no hope left. Now, with extreme patience, I have finally reached 90 days, in fact it's 91 today! The last 4 days or so my libido has returned, and just my dick working brings me back a TON of confidence, you can't even begin to imagine, it feels so fucking amazing. Today again though, it's not as strong again and maybe I'll just go straight back to flatline mode now, which I'm scared of. I have fulfilled my mission with nofap. It hasn't improved my libido unfortunately, which sucks, but it has helped me get a more healthy relationship towards women and sex in general, let alone get rid of all the toxicity porn brings.

Now I'm consdering to start fapping again, very moderately ofcourse and without porn and only natural thoughts. I am thinking once every sunday, that will let me testosterone cycle complete every week. I am hoping fapping again will make me more horny. I love that feeling. Nofap hasn't even been hard for me in terms of resisting to fap. That was never really my issue, I have not had a masturbation addiction in that sense, so I suppose just fapping once a week can't be harmful or? Its no issue it will not spiral up I have self control so no worries there.

I hope someone has any insightfulness to bring to the topic and feel free to discuss/give reasons as to why this would be a bad idea etc. Thank you!

 

Because I hope it brings back my libido. Before starting nofap, and fapping ocationally my libido was alright, now its utter useless, and while flatlining for 90% of the time theres no way I can have sex with women because it doesn't wanna fucking work. So maybe if I start fapping no more than once a week, then it will bring my libido back to how it was atleast. I'm thinking this because the testosterone levels arent maxed out before 1 week after your last ejaculation, and when these levels are building your hormones are usually more active hence easier boners etc. I will not go back to porn. I can fap using natural thoughts/talking with girls etc

 

I was never really addicted to porn though, that's the thing. And now that I have started with NoFap I can no longer have sex with girls because my libido is disgustingly low and there has been no signs of it recovering. I ended my streak 9 days ago and I fapped once. Since then I haven't fapped again, but the last 3 days my libido has been way better actually, so I'm thinking fapping once every 7-10 days is not a bad idea for me. I may just try that and see if it atleast gives me some libido so I can have sexual intercourse when my libido is good. When at NoFap its legit flatline 95% of the time, and it pains me to the point where I just dont wanna bother tbh.