New and Struggling

Keep going, adding more days. More than, cultivate honesty and trust with yourself and your SO. I am reading that in many journals here whose success depends on that.

 

start journaling everyday in journal section., like-minded people will read and respond to it. For me, it's a huge relief when I fight hard some days and in last week.

 

Welcome to the community. Don't be afraid to ask questions.

 

Hey bud! Welcome to the forum. Thank you for sharing your story. I too had a good streak to start off my recovery and then kept having frequent relapses - once every few weeks. You have to keep fighting this drug. You are blessed with a wife and you should make the most of this. One of the most effective ways to combat this drug is to replace it with human connections. Once you can do this, you will be able to negate the need for the drug as the human connections will fulfill your need for gratification. You will have to give it time though because as humans are animate creatures, dealing with the unpredictability of human interaction can be challenging for an addict. We tend to like the "instant gratification" route to reach our goals.

I wish you luck and I hope to see you here. Forming a connection with a community will also help. Keep fighting! Good luck!