How long does it take for "porn think"/porn fantasies to go away?

Hi all,
I am a 31 year old, doing the 90 day challenge. I have not PMO'd or MO'd in the last 65 days or so...

However, I still have nagging (what I call) "porn think". In other words, during times of anxiety or exhaustion, for example, or morning/midnight wood, my mind starts exploring/reliving different porn scenarios that were exciting to me at one point or another during my many years of porn watching. I sometimes just go with it and let myself have an erection in bed thinking about this stuff. At times, I also let my mind drift there if I am having trouble sleeping or feel anxious about something. I don't actually masturbate or watch porn, but I still find my brain lingering on this type of thinking.

Unfortunately, what I am realizing is that I am like 2/3 done with the challenge and these gross porn fantasies are still floating around in my brain. I want this stuff out of my brain (i.e. the aggressive, violent, degradation stuff) and what I am finding instead is that my brain still loves that stuff so much that if I come across something that reminds me strongly enough of it, my dick starts getting hard almost immediately. I feel equal parts shame, frustration and fear that I will never get rid of these porn type fetishes...

I sometimes think part of it is that my brain wants its sexual urges to be satisfied but doesn't know of something to replace porn with. Is it possible that re-wiring with a girl soon could be what I need? Thanks all!

 

Thanks man.
Yes, you may be right about how challenging this aspect is. I really do hope to someday be rid of all of this type of thinking. I don't want to remember which porn scenes had which girl in the best piledriver position or which scene which girl took a good facial in lol.
I have to say though, over time, I do think of the specifics less clearly, and less often. Yes, it bums me out when something I haven't thought of in awhile just seems to re-appear in my conscious thoughts seemingly out of nowhere. But I have to take solace in the fact that in many cases it is months between remembrances or in some cases not coming back into my thoughts at all. Not like the old days where I was thinking about very specific things (like scenes, titles, websites, etc) on a daily basis.

 

Thanks nomo!
Yes, nicely worded! I really think a lot of this is about trying to stay in the moment...
For you, maybe the dominant sex thing is just who you are. It's not an inherintely bad thing (IMO).
For me, it's hard to tell. I didn't have much experience with girls before I jumped into my life of porn watching, so it's difficult for me to really feel like I know my sexual self/preferences exactly. All I know is that when I first started, I would get aroused just seeing naked females on the screen and over the years it evolved into fiending for super rough, or degrading type stuff. This was not baseline for me, but as of right now it is still in the old noggin. I am hoping that eventual re-wiring could play a big role in giving my brain something else (something real) to get excited about, and the old preferences will evaporate.

 

himmelstoss, I totally get your point. However, I don't want to move this thread off topic.