[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

On day 27. Check in.

 

One more day passed
22 on

 

Took a cold shower today..he he..not fun at all.

We have to keep encouraging one another bro and defeat our common enemy.

 

Yes I will!

 

Daily check-in: on day 91.

 

Hell Week Day 1: Wow! I may be way over my head

Checklist:

- Waking up @ 4:30 am: Failed in this; Woke up at 5.50 am this morning; still consider it a success as I usually wake up at 7:30 am
- 1000 push-ups: 300 push ups completed so far
1000 ab exercises especially crunches: 100 completed
500 squats: 110 completed
200 pull ups: 7 completed. This will be a herculean task to complete this week. Wah!
- Running 20k accumulatively throughout the 7 days: run 6.4 km this morning
- Facing some of my worst fears e.g. snakes by going to the snake park and seeing them live: Viewed the most scary snake pictures online and got scared stiff; This will be hard
talking to attractive women: N/A right now
- Coding for a minimum of 3 hours a day: 1 hour completed
- Absolutely no YouTube: Clean so far
no FB or whatsapp: Clean so far
No watching movies or series: clean so far
- No internet usage between 7pm and 10pm: N/A right now
- Schedule my day thoroughly: Not Done
- No Sugar intake: failed in this; Put 1 teaspoon of sugar in my morning tea
- Meditate first thing when I wake: Completed 10 mins meditation
and last thing before going to bed: N/A right now
- Review my values: Completed
write down and internalize my goals every morning: Not Done
- Read a personal development book in one week i.e. The Motivation Manifesto: Read 70 of 275 pages
- Cold shower- spend a minimum of 5 mins under a cold shower per day: Done for Sunday
- Thorough daily Bible Study and meditation: Not Done

 

19 days in! Started my hell week. I feel really enthused about it. My motivation is high. No excuses!

 

Day 274/365

 

Thanks, I appreciate it.

 

Day 2/365
I am so much stronger this time around and I feel I have discovered the way to defeat this once and for all.

What did I do differently?
Well,during my relapse that consisted of looking at some drawn images not real people(my mind was telling me this was okay as long as it was not real people)No! Wrong! I wrote on paper how I was feeling whilst looking at these.
And I found myself writing all negative words for example waste of time,degrading,stupid,childish,sick,if you are not careful,it will make you look older,selfish,I have gone over my time limit,where did 1 hour go?Do I want my wife doing this?Filling my brain with poison,drug,decreasing my alpha state,waste of time again etc that now I can tell myself if ever I have an urge. I gave into the urge last time,gave it a chance, but in the end I wrote down nothing but negative things!I honestly feel this is the key to breaking this habit.Keep going with your streaks,it just isn't worth it!!

 

12/365

 

137/365

 

This is a great idea and I like your positivity when you mentioned even though you didn't wake up at your desired time,you still consider it a success. Also you ran 6.54 kms this morning?Wow!You are doing great so far with these challenges. Good on you dude!!

 

Day 65

 

On day 28. Check in.

 

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Day 2

 

18/365
Make your own decisions

 

Hey guys. Well you know I believe in total honesty. So I have to tell you, I broke my streak late last night. But ... I'm feeling ok about it actually.

First off, 122 days beat my previous limit of 110 days, so I'm proud of that. I feel like I've gained alot more skill in handling things over the last few months. I feel more in control of my destiny now, despite this setback.

Also, I realized something important, actually critical I think in my case. A part of me thought that if I just waited long enough, that at some point my relationship with P would reset back to how it was when i was younger. That I could maybe go back to softcore/vanilla P once-in-awhile. But nope, I get it now. I really get it now. Too many years of P addiction led me down a road of ever-escalating content. The old stuff just doesn't work anymore. So what that means for me is, anytime I decide it's ok to watch P, it is tantamount to me saying it's ok to go down a dark spiral of some of the worst graphic, deviant P out there.

It's like a long-term meth addict thinking they can go back to those days where they'd catch a buzz off a strong black tea. Those days are over for me, long gone. So now I know the plain truth. And the truth is power, if we use it. For me that truth is simple: any P means I'll end up instantly slipping into the worst P. I don't want that in my life. I really don't. I feel that deep down now. My life is so much better without exposing my mind and soul to such degrading, soul-destroying garbage.

Thus, with this new insight, I will begin again. I believe whether we succeed or fail, we always can take what we've learned to the next challenge. Let us always keep growing, and moving towards a more positive future!

I'll probably be heading back to the 60 or 90-day thread, then one day, possibly back to this thread with all you awesome people. As always, thank you for your support. Good luck all, keep at it!

 

Day 42/90, 42/365