1. Welcome to NoFap! We have disabled new forum accounts from being registered for the time being. In the meantime, you can join our weekly accountability groups.
    Dismiss Notice

Caught Off Guard / What Do I Do!?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Internal Vendetta, Apr 1, 2019.

  1. Internal Vendetta

    Internal Vendetta Fapstronaut

    10
    2
    3
    So this is my longest streak since I put up 40 in October. Going strong, been feeling really at peace. The past 3 weeks have been some of the smoothest first three weeks of a streak I have ever had. No real struggle or temptations..

    Then today I was on this streaming site (rabb.it) where we typically watch movies or binge TV shows. Never seen porn on it before, dont even think it's allowed so I never felt too uncomfortable on this site. Its really just a bunch of shows streaming and then a chat off to the side so you can chat while watching. Usually the most any video has at a time is around 50 people.

    Anyways we were watching Harry Potter marathon when boom! No warning out of no where the user streaming just clicks over to a new tab with porn open and starts playing it! I was completely caught off guard. I didnt get a direct look, I couldnt even tell you who the pornstar was or the size of any of her "features".. Got a quick indirect glimpse of some up close penetration and immediately exited out without second thought.

    I dont know how to feel about it. Am I responsible for putting myself in a sketchy situation by allowing another individual to control what im watching. Its hard to avoid these things sometimes. I wasnt really pulled in or anything, but it caught me off guard and I felt a quick rush. I think it was more adrenaline of being caught off guard than dopamine.

    At the moment I dont think it warrants a counter reset.. This streak has been crystal clean (no edging, lusting over images or anything..). Thoughts? I feel sort of perplexed but I feel like thats what the addiction/porn wants me to feel so it can use the guilt to drag me back down.. I need some words of encouragement man, I'm disappointed honestly in myself but it felt unavoidable.
     
  2. #TimeToChange19

    #TimeToChange19 Fapstronaut

    33
    22
    8
    I wouldn't call it a reset. The video/images that appeared were out of your control. If you deliberately searched for this content for arousal, that would warrant a reset. You can't avoid absolutely everything.
     

Share This Page