day 2....phew!

Hi people, yesterday I joined this site. I really like sex, its great, but my replacement of it with PMO and meeting with strangers is not good for me, real sex does not make me feel guilty and worn out, PMO and dodgy encounters does! I don't like facilitating men to be cheating on their wives, I don't think its honourable for me to encourage it. In my open life I am considered a nice guy, gay, in a relationship, well educated, able to help people, a good teacher of older students etc....but when alone this goes out the window a bit. At 59 I would like my private and my public life to match a bit more. I use a dating site (deleted yesterday) I only meet married/bi guys, which I learnt to do as a young teenager, (no excuse but I know why this is powerful for me) I use lots of porn, PMO rather than having time for my partner. I want to be a 60 yr old wiser man in 9 months. This is day 2 and I feel relieved that I will not be secretly meeting any blokes today, or spending 2 hours later scrolling through lists of porn clips trying to find something I have not seen yet. I know it will be difficult but every journey starts somewhere. Love and respect to those who are walking ahead of me.