Taking my life back

Hi.

I'm 24 year old male and I've been struggling for the last four years with this addiction. I've started M in the age of 12. From that point I did it almost daily while watching porn. Looking at it right now I can see that it has affected my life. I have low self-esteem, my porn addiction lowered my libido. I'm in a bad physical shape. I've never been in a relationship.

I've tried nofap for a few times but never got past two weeks. What makes this time so special? For one, I've decided to write here. I believe that there is strength in numbers. Together we can beat this!

So yesterday I've started my streak again. This isn't going to be easy but it is worth it. It's time to take my life back!

 

Thanks for the kind words, CoolRandomDesiDude!

At first, when I started M, I did not see anything wrong with it. I was always shy. Always considered myself an introvert. It was hard setting connections with new people. But I have brushed this things off as a result of "who I am". About four years ago I've found out about NoFap and the negative impact of porn on the reward circuit of the brain. And then it hit me. I've never actually fully been "myself" because I just kept M'ing. And so my fight with addiction has began. At first I thought that it would be simple. After four years of struggling I can say for sure that it is not. Though I can't say that I've made no progress it is still leaves much to be desired. My biggest mistake is that I've kept bargaining with myself ("one more time", etc.). So there must be no more compromises.

I'm not giving up hope. I will do this. It will require a lot but it is certainly doable.

But this issues I've described won't just go by themselves. I understand that. I will need to tackle them. My addiction just hid the true self even from myself. I will need to get that person out to the light and work out the issues.

And yeah, high school was fine aside from fact that never was in a relationship with a girl. Sometimes I feel really lonely.

 

Thanks! For the method and for the video. I will watch it right now. The method will probably trigger me to relapse, so I won't do it. I will continue to workout hard though.