30 Something Newbie Here

Well, I hate to say it but, I have continued to relapse over and over again. Im trying to look at every setback as a learning oppurtunity. Im almost 5 days into my latest streak now, my last streak was my longest which was 12 days, I broke that on a random chat camsite. I actually got hooked on those after I started my nofap journey, oddly enough, I rationalized that it must be ok since it with another person, but the reality is its still hurting my recovery. Anyway thats it for now.

 

I had a rough start to my day, today, I relapsed again and became lazy and unmotivated. I hate those byproducts of PMO soo much. I also hate the brain fog too. Its funny because until I learned aboutt NoFap I used to think that I just had a bad memory and poor organizational skills, but now I know the truth. I am slight disappointed in my recent relapses but, I will learn from this. Im chasing the clear refreshing alive feeling that comes when the brain fog finally lifts. I will feel that again, I can't wait.

 

After a bunch more relapses I have found my self in a 9 day streak, Ive been having slight urges here and there but nothing serious. I think I am in a flatline too. Whenever I see an attractive woman in the street I dont get much of a reaction. Im really tring to become a better person and I feel like NOFAP is just the start.