I want my life back

Hello everyone, i'm really excited to introduce myself here and meet my fellow fapstronauts

To cut it short i'm a 24 year old male student. My porn life started when i was young, around 10 years old. An acquaintance left a porn cassette in the house and unfortunately i watched it. Two years after, i watched a porn movie by myself and fapped. From there everything went downhill. Things got worse when i was in high school, i litteraly skipped classes and stayed at home for several days only watching more porn. Sometimes i wouldn't even eat. Couple it with significant drug use and alchohol... It was hell. After obtaining my high school degree, i cut the drugs and the alcohol but the porn habits became worse and worse after time. I now experienced escalation in my porn use since last year and developped fetishes that i didn't have before (i'll detail it later). I've been using porn for approx 12 years now.
Porn is really destroying my life, i really struggle with women. Hence all my sexual encounters were with Sex workers. My porn habits prevented me from meeting women and attracting them. Last year i watched more porn than i've ever before and spent crazy amounts of money in sex workers. I almost went broke....

I decided to quit porn because it is destroying me and i want to claim my life back. I want to become an entrepreneur later in life and i know that my porn habits will prevent me from doing that, so that's why.

At first i plan to do a 90 day hard mode no matter what, after that i'll see how my brain reacts. I'm very worried because my thougts are full of porn. No day can pass without me pornifying the women around me. It is very scary...

I already did NoFap two weeks ago. I did a 9 day streak but unfortunately i relapsed hard and binged heavily. And tried 3 days ago but relapsed again yesterday with even a more intense binging....

Here's all for me folk, thanks all for your support on my journey.

Stay strong fellas, i'll meet you at the top

 

Hey Guys,

Thanks for the welcoming. I'm motivated to get my life back on track. I'm sure NoFap will help my heal.
Stay strong bro's, see you at the top !