New to NOFAP

Hi All,

I'm 25 and new to this forum. I started nofap 28th October 2018 and there were whole bunch of reasons behind why I started. Let me tell you my story.

I discovered masturbation when I was in grade 7 in school (2005). I was super excited with this new found activity but as I remember I never masturbated regularly back then. Then I was introduced to porn by one of my colleagues back in 2007. Going forward, I got addicted to porn and masturbation and I enjoyed every bit of it. Taking things into more chaotic level, I used p and m as a stress reliever. There were days I masturbated 3 to 5 times in a row for the sake of releasing stress and for pleasure. As I remember, heavy usage of p and m started around in 2010 as I got so many free time back then. Jumping into 2013, I noticed my hair was shredding so I masturbated even more to kill stress thinking that stress could be the reason my hair was shredding. Somewhere in 2014, I woke up to no morning wood. Stress got doubled with this so was p and m. Somehow I came across this NoFap forum somewhere around 2016. Since then I tried rebooting without any success so I gave up rebooting. I believe I gave up because I had zero motivation and I couldn't stop thinking about porn. Throughout these years, I never had a relationship with a girl even though I wanted a girlfriend so bad. I was afraid of being alone but I was nervous around girls I couldn't even maintain an eye contact for few seconds with them. Anyhow, I managed to get a girlfriend who I thought would be my world. We never had sex but we have kissed and enjoyed each other. I stopped p and m because thoughts of responsibilities kicks into my mind, I wanted to be healthy as possible for her, for our future mentally and physically. I abstained from p and m for like 1 month during our relationship. Last year my girlfriend broke up with me putting an end to a 6 months relationship (perks of being born in a country full of idiots who rely on horoscopes). I was devastated, I started p and m again. Time passed with p and m making my body and mind weaker day by day. For some strange reason, I determined to stop this madness forever so I started rebooting again for good. Basically, I have damaged my self over 10 years without knowing I was addicted to pmo.

Few weeks ago I started working out and Yoga to make the best version of myself. I want my hair back. I want my morning wood back. I want strong erections. Basically I want everything I lost for pmo. At the time I write this, I'm on 167 days of nofap. During these 5 months I had exactly 3 wet dreams and 0 relapses. I suspect the last wet dream might be because I had couple of beers that night few hours before bed. I feel better but I cannot specifically name the advantages of nofap I feel. I hope you all will help me get what I lost to pmo.

 

Thanks for the warm welcome mate. I think what I have started (working out, Yoga) is enough for now. I read lot of posts here and gained some knowledge when I started my nofap journey. All is well.