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Hello,
I am a 18 year old straight male, that started at a age of 16 watching foot related porn on youtube. It started with some videos of someone tickling someone else's feet, and started to enjoy these ones. It went over quite quick to violated foot bondage and foot torture porn material and also videos where biting and licking was involved in combination of the two others. I didn't actually masturbate to these videos at all, because I didn't have the feeling to do that, so I did just watch these and got hard and maybe a bit wet at some times. Also within this time my depression period started as well.

So I watched this pretty much every now and then for about a half a year, when I also decided to start masturbating to these videos, because I got hypnotized by these. Of course I enjoyed watching these even more while masturbating to these as well, so I eventually started to watch more frequent also because I was very down and depressed. I even recorded some of my favorite videos and saved to my computer, because I knew they could be removed from yt at any time which they got. I watched these but got tired of them and removed them shortly after, and started to browse for other videos, but I sticked to yt because I didn't like the ones on pornhub.

I did start to look for less violent stuff after like half of a year, because I didn't see it as entertaining anymore, thus my obsession for feet was quite huge still so I couldn't quit from watching videos of feet. So I continued PMO for about a year until today when I decided to take it serious, to quit watching porn, because I don't feel the enjoyment and fun in it anymore, since the results are always that I get more depressed, sad, less social and focused for each time I do PMO, which I don't wanna live with.

So I'll be trying from this day to get a new life, maybe have a relationship with a girl, have a more social life, be more focused and be less depressed and sad. I may fail, but I will still continue my fight for a better life.

Wish me luck
Fapstronaut That quiet guy

 

Thanks alot!